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Living in No Man’s Land

    Primary Infertility (PIF), Preemie/NICU Parent, Stillbirth, Secondary Infertility (SIF), Widower, Miscarriage, Pregnancy After Loss (PALS), Rainbow Baby– all part of the alphabet soup of childbirth related challenges I have had to face. For my efforts, I have an almost 11-year-old girl who has been able to bounce back from trauma no child deserves […]


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Mother’s Day

Mandy

My Wish to You

Day after Mother’s Day, huh?  We did it; we made it through ladies.  We did not set fire to the earth and we are not in jail for punching anyone in the face.  Woo, congrats! Now, on a serious note, I truly hope yesterday was gentle to you. On Saturday I was a part of […]

New Normal

Melissa Russell

Contradictions of a Grieving Heart

  Our son Aiden would have turned five years old this month. It was a hard birthday for me this year. Not only is five years a big milestone, but I also felt a lot of emotional turmoil this year. Knowing that grieving is not a linear process and “grief bursts” are a normal part […]

Pregnancy After Loss

Jason Swirsky

Living in No Man’s Land

    Primary Infertility (PIF), Preemie/NICU Parent, Stillbirth, Secondary Infertility (SIF), Widower, Miscarriage, Pregnancy After Loss (PALS), Rainbow Baby– all part of the alphabet soup of childbirth related challenges I have had to face. For my efforts, I have an almost 11-year-old girl who has been able to bounce back from trauma no child deserves […]

Infertility

Jason Swirsky

Living in No Man’s Land

    Primary Infertility (PIF), Preemie/NICU Parent, Stillbirth, Secondary Infertility (SIF), Widower, Miscarriage, Pregnancy After Loss (PALS), Rainbow Baby– all part of the alphabet soup of childbirth related challenges I have had to face. For my efforts, I have an almost 11-year-old girl who has been able to bounce back from trauma no child deserves […]

Parenting After Loss

Lindsey Henke

How Being a Bereaved Parent has Made Me a More Mindful Parent

I have been a parent for over 2 years now. I stand by my belief that I became a parent the moment I found out I was pregnant with my first child, in April of 2012, as I watched one line turn to two and a plus sign form. From then on, I spent the […]

Grieving Fathers

Jason Swirsky

Living in No Man’s Land

    Primary Infertility (PIF), Preemie/NICU Parent, Stillbirth, Secondary Infertility (SIF), Widower, Miscarriage, Pregnancy After Loss (PALS), Rainbow Baby– all part of the alphabet soup of childbirth related challenges I have had to face. For my efforts, I have an almost 11-year-old girl who has been able to bounce back from trauma no child deserves […]

Beauty Marks

Angela Miller

There Is No Winning In Child Loss

A couple weeks ago I had the incredible honor of winning a Butterfly Award in England. The Butterfly Awards honor champions and survivors of baby loss– those making a difference in the lives of bereaved parents. Unfortunately I wasn’t able to accept the award in person, but I did have the honor of writing an […]

Eileen Tully

Rebuilding

Losing our little ones is like being in the direct path of a violent and destructive storm.  Sometimes, it’s a hurricane, forecast in advance and long-lasting.  Other times, it’s a tornado that appears out of the blue, wreaks its havoc, and then is gone.  Either way, it’s unavoidable, and we are left, shattered, dealing with […]

Grieving Grandparents

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A few months ago I realized that, by this point, I could be a grandma. And when the weight of my loss duplicated in souls never to meet, I sobbed.  A pull-over-to-the-side-of-the-road-ugly cry sob. Grief for loss known – and unknown.  For a title I don’t get to have.  For generations that never got to […]

Calm Before The Storm

Christmas is approaching and for weeks the build up has been going on behind the scenes, teary moments, yearning for our loved ones, almost a calm before the storm. Each year it seems to be different. I remember that first Christmas Cody (02/09/98) died, and then Luke (20/12/98). Luke’s funeral was held just days before Christmas, […]

Causes

Pennies For Preemies

Two years ago, on June 12, 2012, I started something near and dear to my heart. The idea just came, so simple and easy- and I ran with it. I started my charity, Pennies For Preemies. As you may know, I was born at 25 weeks gestation in 1992. I was 1 lb. and 12 […]

There Is No Winning In Child Loss

A couple weeks ago I had the incredible honor of winning a Butterfly Award in England. The Butterfly Awards honor champions and survivors of baby loss– those making a difference in the lives of bereaved parents. Unfortunately I wasn’t able to accept the award in person, but I did have the honor of writing an […]

Guest Writers

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Pay Attention To Your Words

Guest Post by Nathalie Himmelrich As bereaved parents, we make meaning with the words we assign to our experiences. This is, in most cases, an unconscious process. Many times it is based on how we used to process our emotions (and experiences in general) as a child, how our parents managed their emotions and how […]

Grey Skies

Guest Post By Krista Cooper Losing our son Grayson was like being struck by lightening. It’s not something you ever expect to happen to you. No one ever tells you that babies die before they’re born. Not to me. Not our family. I’ve never even been stung by a bee, never broken a bone! I […]

Still Taboo. Stillbirth.

Guest post by Jackie Stillbirth. That one word holds so much weight. Sure, I’d heard the term before but never felt the nudge of curiosity to learn more about it. I wish I had. One philosophy I’ve lived by: If I learn about something I do not wish to occur in my life; it simply […]

Nine Months

Guest post by Janelle Nine months, which doesn’t seem like a long amount of time when you compare it to the average life expectancy of 78.7 years in the United States. In other cases nine months can seem like forever when you are carrying one of God’s little miracles inside of you anxiously awaiting their […]

Longing

Guest post by Kristin Just when I think it’s getting easier, it strikes again. Just this morning, I texted a friend because I was feeling guilty that I no longer felt haunted by thoughts of my son. I felt like a monster for “getting over” the death of my child so quickly. Then, I caught […]

The End of Numbness

Guest post by John It’s been two years, two months, and 19 days since I last held my son. 810 days since I held his broken body and sung the hokey-pokey before it was time to let him go. 19,940 hours since the last time I looked at him in person, rather than on a […]

My New Forever

Guest post by Erin I am a baby sea turtle. On the outside I am protected by a strong shell which was built to withstand the elements, but on the inside I am delicate, sensitive. I have just been born, emerging into the crisp bitterness of the cool air. This world is a scary place. […]

A Dear Friend

Guest post by Rachel My friend is going through a hard time at the moment. Scrap that, her life and her husband’s life has changed and the hard time they are going through will always be there. Ten weeks ago, their beautiful boy was born sleeping. I’m not pretending to know how they are feeling, […]

Five Years Later

Guest post by Erin Where am I five years later? Not quite as far along as I thought I’d be. Now that isn’t to say that I am where I was several years ago or that I am not living my life. I can honestly say, with only a fair amount of guilt, that I […]

Missing Cupcakes

Guest post by Rachel It is a beautiful fall day outside. I woke up hopeful because today is my husband’s birthday and I have been planning some surprises for him which is something I have always loved to do. I have been buying and hiding gifts the last few weeks, made mini-vacation plans, and bought […]

Eyes Wide Shut to a Conflicted Mind

Guest post by Jennifer For the last few days I have been struggling with the topic of this post. I’ve been conflicted. This morning, I took a moment to really think about my conflicted feelings. I started searching for a Bible verse to tie into this post. I didn’t know exactly what I was searching […]

Being Happy and Sad

Guest post by Amy Before our son John was stillborn in November 2012, I knew other women who lost babies. I was always sad for them. I never thought that would happen to me though. But it did. And I was devastated, depressed and heart broken. I was changed. Other disappointments in my life seemed […]