• Gardening through Grief

    Gardening Through Grief

    February 17, 2018

    My childhood is blessed with memories of apple orchards, picking blackberries, raking autumn leaves and snowmen. And yes, of gardening, of being a reluctant helper in my parents’ soggy vegetable plot. When I started a family I knew I wanted my children to feel compassion and connected to living things. I’d been working in a city…

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  • Nurturing Your Relationship Through Broken Hearts

    February 16, 2018

    Navigating loss as a couple is not simple. It’s difficult, painful, and lonely. Experiencing the severe loss of a child can rock any relationship to its core. Your grief has changed both of you and it takes time, patience, and grace to get to know each other post-loss. After your heart has been shattered, both…

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  • We walked into our 20 week ultrasound appointment jubilant and carefree.

    Decisions In Grief

    February 15, 2018

    We walked into our 20-week ultrasound appointment jubilant and carefree. Our mothers in tow, we expected to be in and out in an hour, leaving with a handful of ultrasound photos. Not once did it cross our minds that we would leave bewildered and stunned. We thought the biggest choice we’d make that day would…

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  • Healing Is Every Day Work

    February 14, 2018

    Someone recently asked me, “After all this time, and all the writing and speaking you’ve done about the twins, does it still hurt just as badly to talk about it?” I had to think long and hard before I answered. As with most things, there wasn’t really a yes or no answer for this. “Grief…

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  • My Passions: What’s For Me?

    February 14, 2018

    “How do I go on without my son and without my hope for a rainbow baby?” My husband had a second vasectomy after we conceived Reece Michael. That one was deemed successful after Reece was stillborn just two weeks prior. Having another baby is now wildly invasive AND expensive. I ached for another baby for…

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  • Grief On Demand

    February 13, 2018

    I write about grief. Not all the time, of course, but regularly scheduled. Grief on demand is difficult. It forces me to bring forward things that now, seven years after my Luke was stillborn, have been pushed to the hidden places of my mind – never forgotten, but displaced by the mundane and unrelenting beauty…

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  • pregnancy after loss is a long 40 weeks

    The Longest 40 Weeks: Surviving Pregnancy After Loss

    February 13, 2018

    Pregnancy is supposed to be filled with joy, wonder, excitement, and love.  Nothing changes that like the death of a child.  Nothing. My first child died before he took a breath outside my body.  He was born at 24 weeks gestation in June of 2013. We knew we wanted to try again soon.  Not to…

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