Anger: A stage of grief that I tried to deny access to my heart. Two days after I saw the ultrasound that was still, quiet, and lifeless, I went back to the hospital to do what no mommy should ever have to do. February 17 I delivered our sweet baby Kate; still beautiful, still loved, but…
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The Bereaved Mother: A True Superhero
Continue...The bereaved mother is a warrior. Each day she faces the world whilst carrying the greatest of pain. Each day she lives while her child does not. Each day she fights to stay standing as grief tries to tear her down. The bereaved mother is a superhero. She survives, she thrives, thanks to superpowers gifted…
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Releasing Emotions Without Fear Of Judgement
Continue...When tragedy strikes most of us don’t know how to release our emotions naturally and safely. Instead, we tend to bottle them up. Afraid of being judged by others we hide the agony of our loss. Quite possibly, we’ll scream when no one hears or sob uncontrollably in the car. I know I did and…
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This Person I’ve Become
Continue...I am not the person I once was. Child loss leaves no relationship untouched, no personal belief unquestioned. I can no longer look at the world with unwavering optimism or subscribe to mantras that oversimplify the human experience. “Everything happens for a reason.” After witnessing my own child die in my arms, I cannot possibly…
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Cancer Was Not Supposed To Be Part Of My Story
Continue...‘Malignant cells identified.’ Words I never wanted to hear. My cancer diagnosis arrived just shy of what would have been my daughter’s 7th birthday. I am facing the unknown once again. My diagnosis is unknown, the treatment plan is unknown, my future is unknown, everything is unknown. It’s scary, terrifying, and overwhelming. I have always…
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- Dealing With Others in Grief
- Emotions
- Emotions/Feelings
- Miscarriage
- Pregnancy After Loss
- Pregnancy Loss
Pregnancy After Loss: There Is No Control Over What Happens
Continue...My relationship with pregnancy has always been a bit rocky. My very first pregnancy ended in miscarriage and I was blessed with a healthy boy following that pregnancy after loss. I assumed my reproductive troubles were over. Lo and behold I was wrong as the pattern repeated itself: another early miscarriage followed by a healthy…
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Love in the Age of Clomid
Continue...“Have more sex! You’ll get pregnant!” Anyone hear that before? After a decade of “trying,” it’s safe to say I’ll never look at sex the same way again. Having to time the most intimate of marital activities by when (or if) I ovulate doesn’t leave a lot of room for spontaneity, romance, or heck, even…
