Guest Post by Shane Davis “Where there is love, there is life.” -Mother Teresa I'm a crier. When I went into preterm labor with my daughter, Olivia, I was surprised by my lack of tears and the strange strength I got from my shock. And when I held her in my arms knowing this was the first and last time I would physically hold her, I continued to … [Read more...]
Layers Of Grief- A Poem
May 9, 2013 by Leave a Comment
I sit in pain, my heart broken in a million razor sharp pieces. Shards rip though my insides, drawing fresh blood with every quickening of my breath. With every gasp for air between sobs. Eventually, the tears stop falling. There seem to be none left. For now. But the numbness, that is worse. The numbness leaves me fearful. Fearful I’ll … [Read more...]
Forever Love
April 27, 2013 by 5 Comments
My son should be turning seven. Seven. So far I've survived five of his birthdays without him. Five. He was killed when he was two. Two. It doesn't add up. It hasn't since the day he was violently robbed from me and it never will. Just thinking about another birthday without him makes me want to crawl into my bed and never come … [Read more...]
Return to Joy
April 25, 2013 by Leave a Comment
Guest Post by Carrie I so rarely take the time to sit STILL anymore, to liberate my thoughts. Amidst the stack of work needing to be done for my bookkeeping clients, the homework assignment that was due an hour ago and all of the planning to be done surrounding this film, I feel compelled to allow myself to be in this moment. Right here, right … [Read more...]
You are a mother
April 17, 2013 by 3 Comments
Living life as a baby loss mom mom feels a bit awkward. Like you don’t fit quite right. Not knowing when to keep your ‘secret’ tucked inside, and when to let it all hang out. Defending you motherhood. When it begins. And how it never ends. Even if you don’t have the ‘proof’ to show for it. You are more mother than anyone … [Read more...]
Building a Bridge
April 11, 2013 by Leave a Comment
Guest Post by Julianne Hartung It’s been quite a while since I last posted. I often wonder if it’s because unconsciously I began to limit my connection to others, no longer able to so easily allow them to read my innermost thoughts. I have come to the realization that I usually no longer noticeably share my grief. If you didn’t know me at that … [Read more...]
The Luxury of Grief
April 11, 2013 by 3 Comments
I’ve recently started coaching baby loss moms on how to get past that place of “stuck” in their grief and emerge into a place a joy that honors their lost child. Making the decision to start offering this type of coaching was difficult. (Understatement of the year.) It took months of soul searching and insecurity and fear and ultimately, the … [Read more...]
The Frailty of Family
April 9, 2013 by 9 Comments
The structure of a support system is something that I haven’t been very familiar with in my personal life. I have cloudy memories of some tradition when I was a small boy. Those memories usually came from holidays and they are blurry at best. At some point in both my immediate and extended family, something broke and has not been fixed since. Was … [Read more...]
Finding Your Butterfly
April 8, 2013 by 3 Comments
Guest Post by Jennifer Having the honor of writing this guest post, I feel a certain weight upon my shoulders. About to celebrate what would be the 12th birthday of my sweet angel, Ty, I am a survivor. I am 12 years out of the darkest part of my life. 12 years. That time, in some ways, seems immeasurable. As the magnitude of that number, 12, … [Read more...]
What I Want To Tell You…A Year Later.
April 5, 2013 by 3 Comments
I am five days away from the year anniversary of a D&C. No... It wasn't like walking into the hospital overdue and walking out a day later, having to get into a car with an empty carseat...anticipating the baby that would never sit in it. That was a hell all its own. But it was hell, of that you can be sure. It was not just some … [Read more...]
