She draws me rainbows and colourful swirls and announces to me "This what heaven looks like, Mummy. My big brother is there. He died. But he is in heaven now, so it is okay. He has special lights on his hands". River, my daughter, sees things that I cannot. She tells me stories about how she has been to heaven before she came to live with us … [Read more...]
About Carly
I'm just a girl from Australia with a serious love for chocolate and pancakes. You can find me drawing at the beach with my gorgeous daughters. I blow kisses out to the sunset each night to my little boy who never got to feel the warmth of the sun on his skin. I write about heaven and how I find fragments of it here in the most unexpected places. You can find me on Facebook, Pinterest or my Blog.
Healing Mother’s Day
April 10, 2013 by 7 Comments
"A Mother is not defined by the number of children you see, but by the love that she holds in her heart." - Franchesca Cox I'm not sure that I have ever read truer words. Oh how I wish all of humanity could read Franchesca's quote. There is so much unrest surrounding Mother's Day in our community. The day has been bashed and twisted into a commercial … [Read more...]
Brokenness and Honey Curls
March 13, 2013 by 7 Comments
It was 1am. I couldn't sleep. No surprises there. I lit a sweet pea and jasmine candle that my dear friend gave to me on Christian's birthday. She told me that her friend had given her one and told her that when she was feeling sad to light the candle, inhale its scent and imagine a warm hug from her. My friend wanted the same thing for me. Oh how I … [Read more...]
The Unspoken
February 13, 2013 by 6 Comments
Walking through the store yesterday I saw a stand of Valentines Day cards. They made me think how lucky I am to have a special person to share my life with. I am not sure how I would have been able to get through the death of Christian without Sam by my side. It made me think of all the single parents who grieve alone. What a lonely place that must be … [Read more...]
Ritual
January 16, 2013 by 3 Comments
The lead up to Christian's first birthday was a horribly draining experience. For the 6 weeks leading up to it I felt anxiety and deep sadness. I was taken back to the first raw stages of grief. I kept thinking this the feeling of dread would always be there every year. When his birthday finally came around it was beautiful. Of course it was still … [Read more...]
She Took Him From Me
December 12, 2012 by 9 Comments
I laid there in the dimly lit hospital room. My husband sat in the chair with his head in his hands. We were tired and weary. It was 4:30am on a Friday morning. Christian, our newborn son was curled up on my chest in heavenly peace. There was no sound. We just sat there in silence. Weak and grief-stricken, I managed to pull some energy … [Read more...]
Physically and Spiritually Connected
November 14, 2012 by 5 Comments
In October my family and I took a road trip out to a very small country town called York. It is about a 2 hour drive from where we live in Perth. I was a bridesmaid for my gorgeous cousin Holly, who was marrying her Prince Charming, Adam. It was a beautiful day, the perfect wedding. My entire family drove out for the wedding and my brother … [Read more...]
I Would Still Choose You…
October 10, 2012 by 25 Comments
If I could, I would go back in time. I would endure the sickness, the weakness and the worry. I would go through all the scans and invasive medical procedures. I would be given hope, then false hope, then no hope at all, all over again. I would struggle through the labor and the humiliation of my placenta not budging from my womb. I would … [Read more...]
Weathered
September 12, 2012 by 13 Comments
I recently turned 30. "It's all down hill from here" was said to me so many times. Really? What a truly awful thought. Speak for your own life people. I look around at all my friends who are my age or slightly older/younger. Most of them have lived through their 20's in a really epic way. Partying every weekend, travelling the world, creating their … [Read more...]
Bitter Sweet
August 8, 2012 by 22 Comments
The sun had come out for the first time in what feels like forever, so I took the opportunity to outside and prune back my roses and hibiscus trees. As the rays of the rare Winter Sun warmed my skin I forgot about the burdens that Winter herself had caused my beautiful children. I called my girls out of hibernation for the first time in weeks, they were … [Read more...]
