• Turbulent ocean waves

    Life After Loss: A Turbulent Ocean

    July 9, 2018

    When I came home from the hospital, it really bothered me when people would say “You are so strong! I can’t imagine what you are going through.” No, they couldn’t. And I didn’t want them to. I didn’t feel strong. I felt like when my twins died, I went with them. Other times, I realized…

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  • Unexpected Gifts Of Grief

    The Unexpected Gifts of Grief

    July 8, 2018

    For those who have lost a child, we sit in a perplexing space of saying goodbye to the one who was supposed to outlive us. This was not the way we ever thought grief would enter our lives. And it’s hard to imagine that grief could bring anything more than heartache into our world. Yet,…

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    Finding My Babyloss Mama Tribe

    June 13, 2018

    After my recent retreat with Return to Zero Healing Center, I imagined what it would be like if, in her grief, every babyloss mama could enter sacred space for a time, supported in her healing and surrounded by other bereaved mamas. I call this tribe the Clan of Brave Mothers. I found my babyloss mama tribe…

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  • Five Things I’ve Learned In Five Years Of Grief

    May 27, 2018

    Last month, my little girl would have turned five. I’ve lived 60 months without her, 261 weeks and 1825 days. The journey from our goodbye to today has been along a treacherous path. I have stumbled often, I have become lost in the dark, but I have also seen more light and witnessed more beauty…

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    You’re Allowed To Be Done

    May 14, 2018

    I’m going to tell you something that you might not hear, and may not want to: you are ALLOWED to stop. Stop the treatments; stop charting, stop monitoring every single sign and symptom of either pregnancy, ovulation, or your coming period. You can quit reading long into the night, searching for a way to either…

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  • Beauty In The Broken

    May 4, 2018

    In the first few years after Zoey died, I fought the idea that I was broken.  Everyone continually told me how strong I was, and I tried to prove that they were correct.  I functioned. I went to work. I found ways to cope.  In the last year, though, I’m learning that I can be…

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  • books about stillbirth

    Books About Stillbirth That Saved Me

    May 1, 2018

    I’ve always been an avid reader. After my daughter was stillborn, though, I couldn’t read. It took a long time to pick up a book or get online and read about babyloss. A friend of mine, a fellow bookworm, checked out all the books about stillbirth she could find. She encouraged me to read them,…

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