• Anger and Faith After Stillborn Loss

    Can Faith and Anger Coexist After My Daughter Was Stillborn?

    July 22, 2018

    Anger: A stage of grief that I tried to deny access to my heart. Two days after I saw the ultrasound that was still, quiet, and lifeless, I went back to the hospital to do what no mommy should ever have to do. February 17 I delivered our sweet baby Kate; still beautiful, still loved, but…

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  • Asking God why my child died

    Why Her, God? Why Not Me?

    May 25, 2018

    The question that runs through every grieving parent’s mind is ‘Why?’ Why in the earthly, physical sense. Why in the spiritual, religious sense. It’s true that I’ll never get over my daughter, Abi, dying aged 12. I’ll carry the loss of her with me until it’s my turn. And that’s OK, because to try to…

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  • Your God Is Not My God

    September 29, 2017

    For many, when a child dies beliefs become challenged. We try to make sense of such devastation. We try to understand. We feel the need to know why something like this happened. We want there to be greater meaning or purpose. Many people cling to their beliefs as comfort, but many also question them, feeling…

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  • Waiting For Redemption

    August 25, 2016

      A public bathroom in Las Vegas during a business conference was not my choice location for an emotional breakdown. “God!” I’m not sure if my heart sounded to him like a war cry or the guttural moaning of a wounded animal, but surely I had never called to him before with such desperation. “Have…

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  • Let Me See Her

    March 30, 2014

    Losing a child changes everything. How very profound, right? Even a person, whose life hasn’t ever been touched with this paralyzing loss, could still come to this very evident conclusion. The death of a child will most certainly change everything. Every song on every radio station was personally written and applies to you. Your emotions…

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  • Where is She Now?

    August 13, 2013

    Heaven. Jesus. Streets of Gold. Faith. God. The Beyond. Spirits. Afterlife. Eternity. These words are common, popular, debated and always intriguing. Their meaning or authenticity is never more scrutinized than after life is lost here on Earth — especially when that life is an infant’s. How does faith fit into your life when you have…

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