• maintaining faith after loss

    Maintaining The Faith After Loss

    July 2, 2018

    Over the last couple of months, two friends have had miscarriages. Two friends were expecting to welcome their sweet babies in the fall only to be left with broken hearts and empty wombs. I continue to try and make sense of things that have no explanation, no reason. Even if there was a reason, would…

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  • To The One Whose Kindness Was A Beacon Of Hope In My Despair

    March 16, 2018

    To the one whose kindness was a beacon of hope in my despair, You, my dear friend, my coworker, my family member, my online Facebook friend . . . even you, the stranger . . . you opened your eyes, and you saw the invisible me in the depths of pain from infertility and loss. And now I…

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  • Let the light in.

    Let The Light In

    March 12, 2018

    Bleak. Exhausting. Raw. There will be plenty of days like this. You know the ones. The days when no matter how hard you try, you cannot manage to see past the pain, when the weight of it all feels far beyond what you can bear. The days when the future seems nothing short of daunting,…

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  • A Letter to My Daughter About Love

    December 6, 2017

    “I carry your heart with me(i carry it in)” – EE Cummings i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)                                                       i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want no world(for beautiful…

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  • Deciding to Try Again

    November 29, 2017

    After my second daughter died due to complications at her birth, I did not know if I could have another child, physically or emotionally. With both of my pregnancies, I was categorized as advanced maternal age, and therefore the chances of getting pregnant again were lower and the risk of miscarriage was higher. After 40…

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  • YOU ARE ENOUGH: An Open Letter to the Newly Grieving

    October 4, 2017

    You didn’t choose this story; no one ever would. You have been broken open and made to feel pain that you didn’t know humans were capable of withstanding. You have been handed that which exists in every parent’s nightmare and are now expected to function in this world that suddenly feels unfamiliar. You have outlived…

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  • The Girl Who Lived

    August 29, 2016

    My husband invited them for dinner ~ a new family he had met at church and had really connected with.  I had no real idea of who they were, but knew that they would soon be relocating to another state.  And I wondered why we just couldn’t make a polite excuse to cancel.  After all…

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