• Grieving without God

    September 12, 2017

    God has no place in my grief. It’s pretty much inevitable when you lose a child (or anyone that you love) for the religious platitudes to be rained down around you: “God has a bigger plan for him/her.” “God works in mysterious ways that we don’t always understand here on earth.” “God needed another angel.”…

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  • Did I kill my twin boys…

    July 6, 2015

    “I killed my babies.” That’s the thought that goes through my mind at the most random of times. Laying in bed, staring at the ceiling, willing sleep to come, I think, “I was given one job.  To protect my baby boys.” And I failed. You’ll either understand that.  Or you won’t. I went through hell…

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