• Change written in neon lights

    Something Needs To Change

    June 23, 2018

    I always thought that medicine was so far advanced. I thought that if I listened to my doctor, I would be told everything I needed to know. So when, out of nowhere, my son suddenly died a few weeks before his due date, to say that I was blindsided was an understatement. How could I…

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    Another Year Without You: My Grief On Your 5th Still Birthday

    June 5, 2018

    Today marks five years. FIVE YEARS. Your fifth still birthday. It has been five long and short years without you. Five years since I said “hello” and “goodbye” all in the same day. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of you. Some might say I’m crazy for continuing to wrap…

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  • Five Things I’ve Learned In Five Years Of Grief

    May 27, 2018

    Last month, my little girl would have turned five. I’ve lived 60 months without her, 261 weeks and 1825 days. The journey from our goodbye to today has been along a treacherous path. I have stumbled often, I have become lost in the dark, but I have also seen more light and witnessed more beauty…

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  • To Those Whose First Baby Was Stillborn

    May 16, 2018

    Whatever your story of loss is, the pain is incredibly intense and feels insurmountable. For this article, though, I want to talk specifically to those whose first baby was stillborn, because that’s my experience and that’s what I know. Being pregnant for the first time (or making it past earlier miscarriage dates for the first…

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  • To Our Nurses, With Love and Gratitude From A Bereaved Mother

    To The Nurses Who Brought Me Back Into Life

    May 7, 2018

    Thank you for saving me. Your skills and your knowledge saved me from following my daughter into death, but it was your compassion that guided me back towards life. The humanity you demonstrated is what brought me back into life; you made it possible to think about living after death. For this, I owe you…

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    Books About Stillbirth That Saved Me

    May 1, 2018

    I’ve always been an avid reader. After my daughter was stillborn, though, I couldn’t read. It took a long time to pick up a book or get online and read about babyloss. A friend of mine, a fellow bookworm, checked out all the books about stillbirth she could find. She encouraged me to read them,…

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  • Struggling After Loss

    April 16, 2018

    My husband and I struggled with unexplained infertility.  We treated with a fertility doctor and conceived our first pregnancy on a combined cycle of Clomid, injectables, and IUI.  That pregnancy didn’t make it past nine weeks.  At each appointment, there was always something that wasn’t right and we knew it wasn’t going to be viable. …

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