When you’ve twice lost a baby mid-pregnancy, it feels like there is never a good time to make a pregnancy announcement. “Are you going to say something about the baby on your Christmas card?” my mom asked in mid-November. “I don’t know,” I said. I was sixteen weeks pregnant at that point, and we were…
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- Child Loss
- Fear
- Finding Hope
- Grief
- Healing
- Infertililty
- Life After Loss
- Pregnancy After Loss
- Rainbow Baby
- Stillbirth
- TTC
Taking the leap: trying again after loss
Continue...The room was quiet, almost silent. Crisp, white sheets covered the hospital bed; the lighting low; an air of calm, despite the waves of pain that washed over me with each contraction. Mere hours earlier, the words, “I’m so sorry”, had become forever emblazoned in my mind, their imprint deep and permanent in my soul.…
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- Child Loss
- Community
- Emotions/Feelings
- Life After Loss
- Pregnancy After Loss
- Rainbow Babies
- Rainbow Baby
- Stillbirth
- TTC
Struggling with Sunshine, Angels, and Rainbows
Continue...In the “baby loss community” there are terms and definitions for our children. Some of them I have heard before and some I never knew existed until I too became a member of this community. Terms such as Sunshine Children, Angel Baby, and Rainbow Baby. They are labels and terms that mothers use to show…
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My Babies Are Real– Even if You Cannot See Them
Continue...“Do you see it Mom?’ my Rainbow daughter asked me one morning. “See what”? I replied, half awake “The beautiful colored lights all around us” Curiously, I looked around expecting to see some sun reflections on the walls of her bedroom. Instead, I saw nothing. Given how imaginative 4-year old’s can be, I let it…
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When Science Links my Pregnancy Losses to my Rainbow Baby
Continue...Science is the bridge between death and life, past and present, my angel baby and my rainbow baby. After the passing of our first daughter Sophia, I was not sure we would ever raise a child. After two more miscarriages, I was certain we would never raise a child. Once Evelyn was born, I recognized…
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- Child Loss
- Children
- Complicated Grief
- Dealing With Others in Grief
- Emotions
- Emotions/Feelings
- Gratitude
- Grief
- Healing
- Honoring Your Child
- Life After Loss
- Multiple Loss
- Neonatal Loss
- Parenting After Loss
- Pregnancy After Loss
- Rainbow Babies
- Rainbow Baby
- Supporting a Friend After Loss
- Supporting a Friend Through Loss
- Surviving Child From a Multiple Birth
- Twins / Twinless Twins
Little Lives Can’t Be Replaced
Continue...Recently I was beyond blessed to give birth to not just one, but two perfect little boys. It was an experience that I wasn’t sure I would ever have again and I will forever be grateful for. My kids are the absolute loves of my life, they’re amazing. All of them. While people may see…
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- Child Loss
- Emotions
- Emotions/Feelings
- Grief
- Life After Loss
- Parenting After Loss
- Rainbow Babies
- Rainbow Baby
- Siblings Grief
- Stillbirth
A Little Sister’s Grief
Continue...Can a child grieve for the sister she never met? Can she feel the pain of her absence? Can she miss the one she didn’t have a chance to know? I have two little girls: a three-year-old ball of effervescent energy; and the one who came before her, the baby who arrived silently into this…
