My husband and I struggled with unexplained infertility. We treated with a fertility doctor and conceived our first pregnancy on a combined cycle of Clomid, injectables, and IUI. That pregnancy didn’t make it past nine weeks. At each appointment, there was always something that wasn’t right and we knew it wasn’t going to be viable. …
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April Foolish: This Pain Is Not A Joke
Continue...It happens every year. Someone decides to put a picture of a positive test, or a baby on an ultrasound, or some other way of announcing a pregnancy onto social media for April Fool’s Day. You’re just about to hit that requisite ‘like’ button (jaw clenched and tears burning in your eyes) when you finish…
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- Emotions
- Finding Hope
- Healing
- Honoring Your Child
- Memories
- Multiple Loss
- Secondary Infertility
- Secondary Losses
Tangible
Continue...All of my losses were early. I never got to see an ultrasound picture, never felt little kicks, never even got into my maternity jeans. The only way that I knew that there was anything to miss were positive pregnancy tests that gradually faded from one line to two. That and vomiting in some seriously…
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Don’t Blame Us: I Wanted My Child To Be A Toys ‘R’ Us Kid Too
Continue...Dear Toys ‘R’ Us, The first time I visited your store was such a thrill. Passing through the whoosh of the sliding doors, I remember the feeling that being inside your store was just like you had advertised; a place where I could be a kid forever. I could see my childhood hopes and dreams on…
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When Infertility And Miscarriage Hurt The Child Left Behind
Continue...I’ll never forget the look on her face when we told her the news. So innocent. So excited. She was finally going to be a big sister. Before I found out I was pregnant, we had passed the five-year mark of trying to grow our family, and I was desperate to leave the world of…
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30+ Ways Life Sucks After Infertility and Loss
Continue...For all of those dealing (or who have dealt with) infertility, pregnancy loss, and/or baby loss, I present for your consideration, a truly terrible grouping of some of the nonsense we go through in daily life: 1) Bellies. Round with child, bumping into you on the train, sitting on laps at the doctor’s office, or staring…
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When Hope is Distant: Searching For Rainbows
Continue...There’s a term in the baby loss community known as “rainbow babies,” a baby born after the loss of a child. I’m not here to debate whether or not we should refer to these children as rainbows. Some feel this term is offensive to the baby that was lost or don’t feel as if it…
