• Anger and Faith After Stillborn Loss

    Can Faith and Anger Coexist After My Daughter Was Stillborn?

    July 22, 2018

    Anger: A stage of grief that I tried to deny access to my heart. Two days after I saw the ultrasound that was still, quiet, and lifeless, I went back to the hospital to do what no mommy should ever have to do. February 17 I delivered our sweet baby Kate; still beautiful, still loved, but…

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  • Lone person praying to the universe.

    Thanks For Praying For Me But I’m Tired of Prayers

    July 6, 2018

    Four years into grieving for my daughter, I’ve grown tired of hearing that someone is praying for me. The sentiment is nice, but I find myself wondering what that really means. It’s one of the trigger phrases along with “everything happens for a reason” and any nonsense about “karma” that make me cringe. I grew…

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    Maintaining The Faith After Loss

    July 2, 2018

    Over the last couple of months, two friends have had miscarriages. Two friends were expecting to welcome their sweet babies in the fall only to be left with broken hearts and empty wombs. I continue to try and make sense of things that have no explanation, no reason. Even if there was a reason, would…

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  • Asking God why my child died

    Why Her, God? Why Not Me?

    May 25, 2018

    The question that runs through every grieving parent’s mind is ‘Why?’ Why in the earthly, physical sense. Why in the spiritual, religious sense. It’s true that I’ll never get over my daughter, Abi, dying aged 12. I’ll carry the loss of her with me until it’s my turn. And that’s OK, because to try to…

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  • Sitting With The Unknown

    May 20, 2018

    We were sitting in the office of the rabbi, who had so lovingly cared for us during our son’s short life and in the days after it ended. Tear soaked and desperately forlorn, my husband and I asked questions, both attempting to process how we would be able to live after losing our shared trajectory…

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  • Seraching for Meaning In Loss happens in grief

    Searching For Meaning In Loss

    May 10, 2018

    The day that irrevocably changed my life began simply with hope. My baby girl appeared to be improving in so many tiny yet remarkable ways until she unexpectedly took her last breath. At that moment, darkness wrapped itself around me and enveloped my very existence. My worldview was irrevocably altered, and I discovered that the…

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  • How Being A Bereaved Mum Changed The Way I See Easter

    March 28, 2018

    I always loved Easter. It was a big deal when I was younger — I grew up as a Christian, in a Christian family, so the emphasis was always on Jesus. We went to church twice every Easter, solemnly marking Jesus’ death on Good Friday and joyously celebrating his resurrection on Easter Sunday. There was…

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