• A Weird Place…

    September 8, 2016

    You know how sometimes you have something sit so, so heavily on your heart and in your mind, but you just don’t even know how to say it or write it? You know you can’t be alone, but you are afraid to say it or write it because you don’t know of any easy way…

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  • Why There Are Three….

    September 2, 2016

    If you look at me like most people would…a perky little mom totally enamored and in love with her adorable baby boy, it could be natural for you to think that in my house, one stocking was hung—a stocking that will flow over with goodies and gifts for my obviously first and only child. And…

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  • Every Day Might As Well Be A Birthday…

    August 31, 2016

    Today is my little boy’s birthday. Three years ago, I heard my amazing doctor begging the sweet nurses around me to get me to the OR, FAST.  She was 8 ½ months pregnant herself, and I knew things were not great when she began pushing my bed as fast as she could to the OR…

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  • Secondary Infertility?

    August 24, 2016

    “A Woman Without A Country.” That’s the term I’ve been using to describe myself lately. In many aspects of my life right now, many things are settled, yet very unsettling to me. As a spouse of a United States service member, there are always uncertainties about job details, but things I know are inevitable. As…

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  • Not What If….What Now?

    August 22, 2016

    About ten days ago, when I decided I was going to throw another article in this month, I already had the title in my head. “Free.” I had just found out that this last cycle…the one that was full of twist and turns, but ended with great embryos to transfer after all, failed. I was…

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  • It’s Never Easier…

    August 14, 2016

    …and really, incomparable. One week from tomorrow, I should have been going into the hospital for the scheduled delivery of my third little boy. I’m not sure how that much time has passed…the time between seeing him curled up in my womb on the sonogram screen in front of me to now—months later as I…

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  • Enough With The Double Standard Already…

    August 2, 2016

    Our frozen transfer was not successful.  We moved right into a new, fresh IVF cycle. It was canceled last week because it was just a horrible cycle.  It was to be our last cycle.  As my doctor said, “If this is the cycle you were looking to end your fertility journey with no regrets with,…

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