• A Father’s Grief

    June 20, 2014

    I feel ill-equipped to write about a father’s grief.   Why?  Because I’m not a father; I’m a mother. But I live with a father. I share my life with a father who has grieved; who still does grieve. He is my husband. He is the man who I have loved for the last 14 years.…

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  • How Many Kids Do You Have?

    May 16, 2014

    “Do you have any kids?” “How many kids do you have?” “Do you just have the one?” It is almost certain that you will be asked some form of the “do you have any kids” question occasionally, if not quite often, during your childbearing years. To most, it is an innocent question.  A logical one. …

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  • If You Could Go Back

    April 18, 2014

    If you are a parent who has lost a child, it’s probably pretty safe to assume that at one point or another, you’ve wished you could go back to that day when your baby took his or her last breath. I have.  Many times. Even though all of our stories of loss are different, they…

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  • Life After Loss: The Good, The Bad and The Ugly

    March 21, 2014

    The loss of a baby changes you permanently.  I can honestly say that I barely remember what life was like before I lost Marco.  October 6th, 2009 seems like an eternity ago.  On that day, I was forced to start a new life. A life after a loss is not one that I had envisioned…

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  • A Beautiful Dance

    February 22, 2014

      There’s a painfully beautiful piece being choreographed in my mind.  It’s telling the story of my childbearing years.  It’s a story of pregnancy, loss, life, fear, hope, pain, and love. Each represents a dancer in the company.  Each with their roles and unique qualities.  Let me introduce them to you: Pregnancy is a beautiful dancer. …

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  • It Happened to Us

    January 17, 2014

    January is Birth Defects Awareness month, so I would be remiss if I did not dedicate this post to my beloved son, Marco. After all, he is the reason that I found Still Standing in the first place. My first job out of college was as a nurse in the NICU at George Washington University…

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  • Puzzling

    December 20, 2013

    Every other year we spend a week at the beach with my family. It’s a full house and chaotic at times, but it’s wonderful. It’s become a tradition to do a big puzzle together during the week. This year my dad brought a 1000 piece puzzle of chocolates. We worked on the puzzle all week.…

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