• Twenty Seconds

    December 11, 2014

    “You know, sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery. And I promise you, something great will come of it.” I was watching, ‘We Bought a Zoo’ last night when I heard the above quote. Well, I wasn’t really watching it. My husband was the one watching it while I…

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  • Dear Newly Bereaved Mother

    October 9, 2014

    Dear newly bereaved mother, I couldn’t help but see you today at the cemetery. I saw your slow walk from the car to his special spot, I noticed the pain in your eyes as you loving tended to your boy’s grave and the way you lent on your husband for support. Emotions so familiar to…

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  • Who am I?

    September 11, 2014

    Who am I? It’s a question that has plagued me since my daughter’s unexpected death in January last year. Until that point I hadn’t thought deeply about the question of identity, because life had been so straight forward. I was just me: Larissa, a Christian, wife to Marcus, expecting mother. But when that last definition changed from…

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  • Embracing Life

    June 12, 2014

    I was reminded recently of Still Standing’s mission: to help you embrace life for everything that it is after experiencing the loss of a child or infertility. It made me think…in what ways am I embracing life now? It’s been sixteen long months since Ariella unexpectedly died just one week before her due date. Sixteen months of hurt, sixteen…

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  • The Things I Remember

    May 8, 2014

    There’s a lot of things I remember from January, 2013. I remember the silence. From the moment during the home visit when the Doppler was place on my stomach, the sound of my heartbeat filled the lounge room. But all I heard was silence. Silence where my baby’s heartbeat should have been, silence as my…

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  • Dear World, I Wish You Knew

    April 10, 2014

    Dear World, I wish you knew that I will always miss my baby. It doesn’t matter how many days, months or even years go past, she will always be my baby and I will always miss her. Always. Dear World, I wish you knew that it will always be hard to see other babies and…

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  • Destinations of Grief

    March 11, 2014

    The first destination on my grief journey was Shock. Absolute, mind-numbing shock that my baby had died inside of me. How could it be so? How was it possible that a perfectly healthy baby had died at 38 weeks and 6 days gestation? Everything turned from eager anticipation and hope to pure shock. I’m grateful…

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