Throughout the last decade of my journey with PCOS and infertility, I’ve had more dreams than I can count that are related to pregnancy and childbirth. While going through fertility treatments, I can remember dreaming about getting two pink lines on a pregnancy test. I remember dreaming about those sweet little kicks and what they…
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Holiday Pregnancy Announcements And Social Media Anxiety
Continue...After spending a lot of time in various infertility support groups over the last decade of my adulthood, I’ve learned just how deep the roots of social media anxiety goes when it comes to the holidays and pregnancy announcements. Everyone who struggles knows they are coming. It’s like a ticking time bomb we’re all just…
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PCOS Awareness Month: Why It’s Important
Continue...September is PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) Awareness Month. I heard someone say recently that they feel like there is an “awareness” day, week, or month for everything these days and it feels like we’re in this vortex of over-saturation of “awareness”. This made me cringe. I mean, I get it. But here’s the thing: there…
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The Room That Was Supposed To Be A Nursery
Continue...In our three-bedroom house, we have this room that has always been referred to as “the blue room” or “the spare room”. At one point, it was an office. At another point, it was my sister-in-law’s bedroom. Ever since we moved in 10 years ago, this room has been the catchall space. Even when it…
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Déjà Vu: One Year After Miscarriage
Continue...Everyone says you can’t have a rainbow without a storm, but I never said I wanted a rainbow. I wanted that baby.
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My Miscarriage Wasn’t Just A Heavy Period
Continue...My pregnancy in 2017 was an absolute miracle. After 5 years of waiting, it came as quite a shock as I had done every treatment except IVF at that point. From oral medications to injections, from timed intercourse to IUIs, from temping and charting to natural remedies. I came to grips with the fact that…
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After Miscarriage: “How Many Children Do You Have?”
Continue...For the first time ever, someone who doesn’t know my story of infertility and miscarriage innocently asked me the question I’ve been dreading: “How many children do you have?” To keep the moment from being awkward in a room full of people, I promptly responded with: “one”, but my heart started racing because I felt…