When my son Jonah died at 30 weeks gestation in January of 2017, deep grief was something I’d become well acquainted with. It was like waking up every day with a fresh wound that wouldn’t heal, and felt as if it never would. It’s during this time that I found my loss mama community online,…
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Social Media After Baby Loss: Who Do You Let In?
Continue...Just about every experience after loss is different from those that came before it. There are different meanings to things, and different ways you react. One large piece of my life that has changed quite a bit is the way I perceive and use social media after baby loss. Social Media: A Landline After Loss…
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To Those Whose First Baby Was Stillborn
Continue...Whatever your story of loss is, the pain is incredibly intense and feels insurmountable. For this article, though, I want to talk specifically to those whose first baby was stillborn, because that’s my experience and that’s what I know. Being pregnant for the first time (or making it past earlier miscarriage dates for the first…
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How Adopting a Puppy Helped Me Grieve
Continue...When my son, Jonah, was stillborn at 30 weeks in January 2017, my beloved cat, Cally, was in her last months on Earth. Cally and I had an amazing bond, but at 22 years old, she was really, really old. Cally had lived the longest and loveliest of kitty lives, from the time we found…
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The Pain of Easing Grief
Continue...I remember the first couple of weeks and months after saying goodbye to my precious Jonah at 30 weeks gestation due to a heart condition as extremely difficult and filled with so many ups and downs, I felt like a marionette doll living someone else’s life, because there’s no way that much sadness could be…
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How Grieving Mothers See the World
Continue...The moment you leave the hospital (or your home) after losing your baby, the world looks different. It’s not that the world has actually changed, though – it’s how you see it. You’re now looking at the world through grief eyes, and nothing looks the same. Going through a trauma like losing your baby is…
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How Active Grieving Saved Me from More Pain
Continue...There’s no question that grief is hard. It takes everything you have just to be a human when you’re deep in grief. It’s physical, it’s mental, and it’s tough. The day that I was lying in my hospital bed waiting for my induction to help me push out my stillborn baby boy, Jonah, I made…