I have been writing for Still Standing for close to a year now. Every month when I sit down to begin an article I always try to think of one element of grief and hone in on that. Almost as if I must compartmentalize all of my feelings and then pick which box to open…
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A Reflection On Loss Two Years Later
Continue...The end of April will mark two years since my first child bled from my body. Since then I have given birth to my rainbow baby, the only other child I will have. This month also marks one year since I found out that I was pregnant again. So there are many emotions mixed up…
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Healing After Loss Without A God
Continue...I was raised very Catholic but fell away from the church at sixteen. I came back when I was nineteen but really struggled with the beliefs I had been taught and the life I was living. At twenty-one, I began looking at other religions and practices and fell in love with Buddhism. From then on…
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3 Ways To Communicate And Connect With Your Spouse After Miscarriage
Continue...My husband and I lost our first child six months into our marriage. Which was only about three years into our relationship. We had a very good way of communicating but it was difficult to hold onto that in the ocean of grief. The thing about grief is that it is different for everyone. You…
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When Having More Children Is A Difficult Decision
Continue...Last month I gave birth to my rainbow baby, Atlas. Having her in our lives has brought up so many emotions, some complicated and some not. It has reinforced emotions we had felt and decisions we had made before her birth as well. The big decision being to no longer try to have more children…
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Dear Talia: Happy Birthday
Continue...Today would have been your first birthday. Today I should be celebrating a whole year of having you by my side, but instead, you are gone. You have been gone since April of last year. Life has changed so much and I miss you every second. Today I am officially 34 weeks along with your…
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Why I Count My Miscarriage as Giving Birth
Continue...**Content Warning: This article contains graphic descriptions of miscarriage** I do not often speak about the details of my miscarriage. I will just describe it as violent if I have to describe it at all. The trauma of the birth/loss process is what has stuck with me just as much as the loss of my…