• From the Ashes

    September 20, 2016

    There’s a home in our neighborhood that suffered fire damage awhile back.  Luckily, it was not a total loss, as the fire department contained it to just the master bedroom and bath.  While the home suffered smoke damage, it could’ve been much worse.  It happened during the day and nobody was injured.  Really, as far…

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  • Before/After

    August 14, 2016

    Years ago, when we still had satellite, I enjoyed watching home improvement shows. The before and after of remodels were always amazing to me. Before pictures, even if decent, seemed drab and faded compared to the shiny and new after. Weight loss or makeover photos show an even greater transformation.  The before photo always captures the person…

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  • What I want you to know about child loss

    July 19, 2016

    What I want you to know is that you never get over losing a child. The pain never goes away. And you are never the same person again. I lost my sweet, funny, one of a kind 14-year-old son on November 29, 2008. There’s no real answer as to why a healthy, active, athletic boy…

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  • Marked in Memory

    June 16, 2016

    If you look closely at the cover photo for Still Standing magazine, you’ll see my feet. Though my ankles were swollen and I could’ve taken a more flattering shot, I wanted it to be real and for my son’s memorial tattoo to show. It is the only tattoo I have. Shortly after losing Austin, I…

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  • Muted

    May 17, 2016

    Writing through the loss of my oldest son has been healing for me. Words have just flowed, along with the tears. In the thousands of posts the past eight years, I’ve never had writer’s block, never struggled to put my thoughts to the page. But talking about the loss out loud has been quite the opposite. Most…

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  • Moving Forward, Looking Back

    April 19, 2016

    Pictures of our first vacation post-loss appeared in my newsfeed this week.  And, oh, how those eyes spoke volumes.  Strange how one photo can take you back in time and flood you with memories. Because even though we smiled for the camera, I remember that those eyes were misty and tear-streaked.  Moments before the photo above…

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  • Parenting After…

    March 15, 2016

    The months after Austin died, especially because why he left was still unknown at that time, I lived in constant fear for my youngest child. Was there something in my house that was a danger?  Something lurking that could take my second son?  Should we have vaccinated more?  Did we too much?  Did I need…

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