What matters in life is not what happens to you, but what you remember and how you remember it. -Ann Voskamp The last several years of life has brought what often feels like a lot of brokenness. Out of that brokenness, even more, brokenness in my life and heart has been revealed. It didn’t happen…
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I Can Love My Baby, Grieve My Loss, And Still Have Had An Abortion
Continue...They say, we are perfectionist uptight women who are unable to tolerate the thought of a child with special needs. They say, we took the easy way out, to avoid dealing with a medically complex child. They say, we are cold, uncaring women, throwing away our child the minute there is a problem. They say,…
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We Look “Perfect” – What They Don’t Know
Continue...As I travel this journey of baby loss, of losing our one and only son Henry, I look around and no one knows, all these people I see around me in the street, they don’t know, they don’t know I am a mother to Henry, they don’t know that my child has died. They see…
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Grief Shows Up
Continue...Grief showed up today. I had been anticipating its appearance in my Facebook memories from four years ago. The last baby bump photo that I had posted on Facebook. You know the one. The one with the glowing mom standing sideways, showing off her round bump in a tight-fitting shirt. I’m smiling next to a…
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A Different Kind Of Grief
Continue...Now, I apologise if I sound like a bitch writing all of this, but this is life. But I’ve seen this talked about quite a bit and I’ve been mulling it over in my head. When we were trying to get pregnant, with every failed attempt came a deeper sense of upset every time someone…
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The Eyes Will Always Betray You
Continue...Guest Post By: Chaunie Brusie I’ll never forget her eyes. She was dressed all in black, the traditional long-sleeved dress, even in the heat of the summer lining her body, and the matching bonnet all but hid her face. She looked straight ahead from the wheelchair she sat in, expressionless and almost perfectly still.…
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If You Had To Choose Three Days To Remember…
Continue...If you were to ask someone who hasn’t gone through a death of their child, which three days they would pick to remember, if that was all they could keep, I wonder what they would choose? We didn’t get a choice, which sucks. Big time. Our three days with Leo weren’t enjoying a sunshine filled day in…