• Postpartum Anxiety after a rainbow baby is real

    Postpartum Anxiety: The Storm After the Rainbow

    June 27, 2018

    Admittedly, the rainbow analogy isn’t a perfect one when talking about baby loss. I know it’s embraced by some loss parents and despised by others. Bear with me here as I use it to address an unexpected and difficult challenge of my experience as a rainbow parent. If grief was the storm before my rainbow…

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  • Bereaved Dads Are Brave Dads

    May 23, 2018

    As we approach Father’s Day, I want to point out something I’ve realized that I think might go unnoticed by most of society: Bereaved dads are brave dads. The bravest dads. We talk a lot about what bereaved moms go through and how fierce they are as mothers. But the dads undoubtedly deserve more recognition…

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  • My Motherhood

    April 25, 2018

    My motherhood doesn’t look like your motherhood. You see me out at the store and you might think I’m a mother just like any other. But I’m not. Yes, I have my 8-month-old daughter in my arms. Yes, she makes every mundane daily task simultaneously harder to accomplish AND more joyful. Yes, I struggle with…

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  • 7 Ways to Honor an Angel Baby

    March 29, 2018

    Shortly after I lost my son Jacob, someone asked me, in a kind caring way, if I would want to remember and talk about him or try to move on (it was more artfully phrased than that). Without a doubt, my answer was REMEMBER HIM! But I was troubled by a nagging question: How do…

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  • I’m Not Okay

    January 24, 2018

    Eighteen months into my grief journey, most days it probably seems that I’m doing okay. I even convince myself that I am. My rainbow daughter is here, healthy, and has reintroduced so much joy into my life. She makes me happier than I could have ever imagined. But I’m still not okay. When sharing about…

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    Not So Happy New Year

    December 27, 2017

    If there is one thing I’ve learned about grief since losing my son shortly after his full-term birth in July 2016, it’s that grief strikes when you least expect it. When I have anticipated a particular day being impossible, grief usually hits harder in the days preceding it than on the actual day. My son’s…

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  • Gifts From My Angel

    November 2, 2017

    I’ve heard it said that becoming a mom changes you forever – the old you is gone and replaced by the mother version of you. I’ve also heard that parents often learn more from their children than their children learn from them. Though not intended for this circumstance, I think both statements are never more…

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