“I hope this helps in some small way,” the note read, tucked inside a book about losing a child. I was coming home from watching my third little boy die in my arms on his three-week birthday, on the anniversary of the due date for my twin boys who died a little over a year…
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- Anger
- Anniversaries
- Child Loss
- Complicated Grief
- Emotions
- Emotions/Feelings
- Faith
- Feeling Hopeless
- Finding Hope
- Grief
- Healing
- Life After Loss
- Memories
- Multiple Loss
- Neonatal Loss
- Pregnancy After Loss
- Rainbow Babies
- Rainbow Baby
- Time
- Trauma
When You Don’t Part the Waters
Continue...Four years ago today I sat next to my husband and daughter on a little couch in the PICU of Dallas Children’s Hospital and held my much wanted, much prayed over, rainbow baby boy as the clocked ticked past his 3 week birthday and Kaden took his last breath. We left that hospital hours later…
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- Complicated Grief
- Faith
- Fear
- Finding Hope
- Grief
- Life After Loss
- Multiple Loss
- Neonatal Loss
- New Normal
- Pregnancy After Loss
Moments of Comfort
Continue...I had the strangest thing happen a few Sundays ago. Actually, two strange things. Before I tell you what, let me preface this (and brace my heart a little) by saying that I have a very, very hard time with “signs” and “meant to be’s.” And by that I mean, I don’t take things that happen…
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- Anger
- Complicated Grief
- Faith
- Fear
- Grief
- Life After Loss
- Multiple Loss
- Pregnancy After Loss
- Psychology and Grief
- PTSD
- The Unexplained
Standing At The Door
Continue...I was supposed to get a cerclage several weeks ago. It was totally optional, nothing has changed and nothing really warrants one. In fact, none of my pregnancies (maybe my daughter’s since I effaced early but didn’t actually go into labor until 37 weeks) would have benefited from one. I had one with my son Kaden and…
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Should Have Been
Continue...I drop my daughter off at her hourly care class, a few hours so I can work and she can have some fun with friends. I hug her and wave all the way out the door as she does the same, peeking through the window panes at me as I leave. On my out there’s…
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- Child Loss
- Complicated Grief
- Dealing With Others in Grief
- Grief
- Healing
- Life After Loss
- Miscarriage
- Multiple Loss
- Neonatal Loss
- New Normal
- Psychology and Grief
- PTSD
- Recent Loss
- Support Groups
- Supporting a Friend Through Loss
Say It Again
Continue...When something unbelievable happens to us or another person, many of us react by telling the story multiple times. We need to tell it to someone and see their reaction, maybe different reactions. “Can you believe she cheated on him?” “I heard he lost his job after screaming at his boss.” “I was just driving…