Recently, my husband and I welcomed our “rainbow” twin daughters into the world. (I am hesitant to use the term rainbow baby because I used it with my son, who we lost.) Pregnancy after loss was one of the most challenging moments of my life. It was difficult to get through each day knowing all…
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Consolation Prizes – Other Bereaved Parents
Continue...The club of bereaved parents is one that no one ever wants to join. To most parents, it is an abstract idea. Losing a child is something that happens to other people and not to them. But to us, it is a sad reality that we must live the rest of our lives with a…
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Scars: Call Me A Work In Progress
Continue...Infertility and infant loss have left me with deep emotional scars. The scars that I carry from my struggle with infertility never went away. Even when I was pregnant with Asher, my reaction to other people’s pregnancy announcements remained the same. I felt like some people didn’t struggle enough to get pregnant and that fact…
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A PSA For Christians: God Can Give You More Than You Can Handle
Continue...I consider myself a Christian. I believe in God and Jesus Christ. Religion is such a touchy and personal topic. Due to that fact, it’s not something I have written about much. Everyone has different views, and I don’t want to push mine on others. However, I’ve found that when you lose a child, many try…
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Confessions of a Bereaved Mother on Bedrest
Continue...I was recently placed on bedrest for my pregnancy after loss (PAL). The weight of the twin girls was putting too much strain on my cervix, which caused it to dramatically shorten in a small amount of time. All of this was discovered at a routine 24-week scan. Now I am hoping to live out…
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Pregnancy After Loss: Fear and Anxiety
Continue...About 6 months after the silent birth of our firstborn child and 5 months of trying for another child, my husband and I decided to go back to the fertility doctor. Since the birth of our son, my once like-clockwork cycles were all over the place. Even if we were able to conceive a child,…
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Crocheting The Blanket
Continue...I have been crocheting for a few years now. I found that I needed something to do with my hands while binge-watching TV or else I would’ve been binging on food instead. So, I went on to good old YouTube and watched videos to learn the basic crochet stitches. For years, I made blankets, hats,…