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June 11, 2019

‘Dear Abby’: Our Children Were Still Born, So Yes, We Expect Participation In Remembering Their Lives

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‘Dear Abby’: Our Children Were Still Born, So Yes, We Expect Participation In Remembering Their Lives
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An open letter to ‘Dear Abby’ about her advice on remembering a child who was stillborn

Dear Abby,

This coming Thursday, June 13, will mark my daughter Diana’s 2nd birthday. But, this birthday is a bit different than most 2-year-old’s birthdays I have celebrated.

You see, Diana is not here with us.

Two years ago, I heard those words that no one wants to hear.

“I’m sorry, but there is no heartbeat.”

I was 36 weeks pregnant, and Diana was stillborn.

Last year I struggled with what to do to celebrate her birthday. Do we have a party? Do we have a cake and sing “happy birthday?”

Do we go about our day like nothing?

I was pregnant with my rainbow baby, with a month to go. We ended up driving to Montauk (of course, it was pouring) and spending the day there.

At night, we went out to dinner with my brother, my sister in law (and best friend) and my nieces. We had a piece of cake with candles, but no singing.

Then after, we lit a paper lantern into the sky and watched it fly away (ok, it might have floated into a tree and almost started a fire, but that’s another story).

I started to think a few weeks back about what I wanted to do this year. Pregnant again, with an 11-month-old… well, it’s pretty tough.

And then.

I came across your article on a woman asking about her aunt wanting to remember her stillborn child.

I immediately felt such sadness for the writer and her aunt.

This is precisely why stillbirth is such a taboo subject. 

Wait.

I reread it.

My mistake; I thought this article was written 20, maybe 30 years ago.

I was wrong.

It was written this year.

How dare you “dear” Abby. To suggest the aunt seek out grief counseling, and then add the next line:

“…expect everyone to participate as if the child had lived is truly sad.”

Abby, what would you like for the aunt to do?

I’m glad you never had to hear those terrible words of, “I’m sorry; there is no heartbeat.”

I’m glad you never had to experience a truly silent birth, with no smiles or laughter.

I’m glad you never had to decide the type of clothing your daughter was to be buried in.

I’m glad you never had to decide whether to cremate or bury your child.

I’m glad you never had to decide how to answer, “How many children do you have?”

I’m glad you never had to see babies/children around the age your daughter would’ve been and hold back tears.

And finally, I’m glad you don’t have to struggle with what to do for your daughters’ birthday, as mine is no longer on Earth.

And shame on you; Crystal in Nevada. I’m truly thankful my nieces, at five and three years of age, have more empathy and tact than you will ever have.

They will always remember Diana and never think I am morbid about celebrating her life.

I suggest you try the same with your aunt.

Happy 2nd Birthday, Diana Hope.

 

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Jeanine Sabatino is mother to almost 3. One in heaven (Diana Hope), one here (Eliana Lucia) and one in utero. She has been with her husband for over 20 years, and they live on Long Island. Jeanine is committed to being a total advocate about stillbirth and aftercare. She runs www.dianashope.com.

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  1. Lise Heelbeck says

    June 11, 2019 at 2:01 pm

    Totally agree! My son’s first birthday is in August, we are having cake and a candle. We are blowing bubbles to heaven and we are doing it with friends and niece’s.
    It will also be 1 year since our tiny man died. We are choosing to celebrate the day rather than sink back into sadness.
    Thank you for writing this XXX

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    • Kate says

      August 14, 2019 at 4:36 pm

      I love your article. It totally speaks to me and I understand it completely. I lost my daughter, Kassi a few years ago at 30 weeks pregnant. We always get a small cake on her birthday and will continue doing so for her. A small remembrance such as this means so much.

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  2. Niz says

    June 11, 2019 at 11:03 pm

    I celebrate my daughters birthdays every year since they passed. I talk about them daily. It’s easy for someone who has never had the misfortune of losing a child to say things like that. I pray “dear Abby” never has to celebrate the way we do.

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  3. Emm says

    June 15, 2019 at 7:20 am

    Beautiful article. Thankyou ❤

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