They all say you’re with me… they say you haven’t left me, you have merely taken on another form.
But I don’t see you; I don’t smell you, I don’t hear you, I don’t feel you.
Look for the signs, they say.
What signs? What do I look for? Where do I look? How do I know it will be from you?
Your absence is so present and looking for you, trying to find you, see you, hear you, feel you, has become my all-consuming daily reality.
I feel like I am stuck in a maze.
I’m lost and searching. It’s you I’m searching for.
I talk to you, but can you hear me?
I think of you, but can you see me?
I dream of you, but is it just a dream?
Or is it really you?
Less than four months after your death, I take a bold step and speak to a medium.
All I want is to know, that I know, that you are ok.
My Son Died, But He Is Still Here
It’s you! You speak to me through her, and it can only be you.
Only you would say those things, only you would know those things, only you…. but is it you?
Then she says – you will see his face in the sky.
And now… I look up.
All I do is look up hoping to find you. Hoping to see you… but will I?
How can you appear to me in the sky?
I believe it will happen, but the skeptic in me takes over, and I feel disillusioned once again.
Where are you?
And then it happened. It was August 13th, a Monday afternoon.
On my drive home from work, I noticed the most unusual cloud formation in the sky. It was there the whole way home, during a windy winter afternoon.
It never moved, it did not blow away.
I arrived home, and took a photograph of the clouds with my phone and went inside.
Two days later I looked at the photo I took and then I saw it.
There it was… your face – Jordan’s face in the sky.
Just think about this for a minute… the synchronicity that was at play on that day.
I noticed the cloud, I took a photo of it at the right time (5:33 pm), and the photo was perfect.
August is a windy month in South Africa.
How could that cloud stay intact whilst the August winds howled through the sunset sky?
Had I moved a little more to the right, or further down, I would have missed it.
I would not have captured your face.
Now I know… now I know you are with me, you do see me, you do hear me. You have not left me.
You have just taken on another form.
Signs From Heaven: Receiving Signs From My Baby Who Died
There really are signs.
They are real.
They are from you. And there have been so many.
Now I look back, and I believe.
The grasshoppers you sent me, the heart-shaped clouds, the rainbows, the songs, the visitation in my dream, the owls… so many signs, but the one I treasure the most is your precious face in the sky.
Who would believe I would capture a photograph of you, after you were gone.
Photo Credit: Author’s own
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Thank you for sharing. Your words are a comforting reminder that we are not alone…that there are others who have lost a child and have experienced the same grief and despair, and who have found some way to go forward…I lost my 23 year old daughter three years ago and am still searching…for signs, for memory, for ways to go forward.
The signs are there maybe you are looking so hard you are missing them ? Just know and believe in your heart that your daughter is still with you like my son is still with me. Sometimes when I meditate I can even hear him answer me back l. I am terribly ill on oxygen 24:7 all this happened after he transitioned I willed myself to die so I could be with him. I have 3 other living children all grown up and 3 grand daughters too
I decided I wanted to go one but I think I have decided too late as I am end stage COPD it came on so fast but I did it to self. Cuz I stayed in my room at just smoked myself to this point
I quit smoking once I was told I had COPD but it was a too late damage done. I am not afraid of dying because my angel son will be there but I truly am not ready like I thought I was. Gues God knows best and what will be willl be need
To get my stuff in order so if I pass the kids will have equal shares of what I have and no fighting
Between them. Hubby isn’t doing well either it’s like we are in a race to the other side.
Hope you can feel your daughter with you and start to de the signed she sends be patient and don’t try to hard they are there just like she is I know for fact . All our angels are safe and happy on the other side
Thank you for your post Donna..I needed this so much..5 years today since my youngest son left..xxx
Almost 10 months for me. My beautiful son, 28 years young. I have had so many signs but then they stop and I despair again. I wonder how long can they stay and give us this precious signs?