I am a grieving mother. My son died. I know he is physically gone from this world.
Yet I assure you he is not gone.
Let me also say; he is not “looking down, watching over us.”
Don’t tell me he “will always be in our hearts.”
He is not in some faraway place waiting for us to be reunited.
He is right here in the same room where I stand.
When I say that, it is not in the sense of remembering him or keeping his memory alive.
Nor is it wishful thinking.
I promise you it is no grief hallucination.
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My son is still very present in our lives.
I know because he actively sends signs.
Things some would write off as coincidence are pure synchronicity.
His train book blowing a whistle in the backseat, alone.
The lamp in his bedroom was going off and on — his shadow against the wall.
Then there was the time a medium told me about my trip to the airport when the air conditioning went out. I was alone in the car…
or so I thought.
There are so many more. We could spend the entire day talking about it. This isn’t a topic commonly discussed.
Quite honestly, we can sound a little crazy. Until you’ve experienced it, it’s hard to comprehend.
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I understand how it sounds when I say I felt his hands on my shoulder, the way he always woke me up in the night.
You think I’m nuts when I tell you he communicates with me using the number 12.
I assure you it is all true.
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Grief like this changes you and shifts your perspective.
People wonder how I survive a loss like this.
I can’t give you that answer because I don’t know.
This has become my life and it’s so very different than it used to be.
However, I can certainly tell you I’m not doing it alone.
He is helping me on this journey.
While it may seem to the world like my son is gone, they are wrong.
He is still here.
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Carmela says
Thank you for this, it’s true they are not gone. We also get signs from our Max especially his sister. He is right there with her guiding her on this journey we surely would not have chosen
Christine says
Love this! I thought about writing my own experience too! Thank you for paving the path.
Beverley says
Thank you for sharing you’re not wrong
Lori says
Love this article, I’ve experienced this very same thing, ongoing as I keep my connection with him front and center amidst daily living on my healing journey.
Catherine says
My son passed away 3 and a half years ago. For 3 years he communicated with me everyday. I could hear him speak. Then about 6 months ago he came to me in a very vivid dream. We hugged I felt him. We talked and talked about my future. And his brother and sisters future. Then he said he had to go. He was tired and had to go. I ask him when it was my turn to pass over will he come for me? He smiled. So I know he will. From that night he comes in and out. He has work to do on the other side. I miss our conversations and having him around. Then he turns up.
So for me this is so normal. A shame more are not in tune to see or hear there loved ones.
I feel very fortunate
Kim Halerwich-Clark says
I absolutely agree with this article! My eighteen year old son passed in 2015 in a vehicle collision and we began receiving so many signs that I started to document them. I have no doubt that life truly does go on. We miss him here like crazy but whenever I need him, he makes his presence well known. For the first year after his death, I started to keep a journal as writing is a part of my life, so it helped me to heal in some ways. Since then, my entries have been published into a book to help others realize that physical death is not the end of existence. My book is called Butterfly Kisses From Beyond – Signs From My Son in Heaven which is available on Amazon but I do have a free sample at http://www.butterflykissesfrombeyond.com for those who are struggling with the loss of a loved one. Stay aware of your surroundings and when those so-called “coincidences” pop up, acknowledge them, as your loved one is trying like crazy to get your attention to let you know they are still here. xoxo Hugs to all of you who are suffering loss.
nancy y, carlson says
I have a story I wrote on love and loss…how can I post it here?
Beverly J. Wittler says
My son left his physical body in October 2010. He comes to visit often. His kitty alerts when he is around, and our 6 month old kitten many times follows something I can’t see with her eyes. I’ve checked for bimugs, insects etc. And none seem to be around. He has sent many undeniable signs. I get visions of him, sometimes with my eyes closed and sometimes with my eyes open. One of the last visions I had of him he was on a beach sitting in a beach chair with a hint of a smile. I could hear a girl’s voice off to the right of him saying, “Hi Jeff, hsven’t seen you in a long time”. But I could not see her. He met my friend’s daughter after she left from drowning. They both were in her mother’s vision and communicating telepathically with her. I had asked him to greet her and show her around. Shortly after he crossed over one morning I was laying in bed awake, after telling him the night before that I needed to hear his voice again. As clear as a bell I heard him say mom 3 times in my left ear. He comes to a classmate of his in visitation dreams, and she let’s me know the next day. My friend is psychic, and he has come to her in visions several times. And the best ever. After 8 years of talking to him and praying for a visit, he materialized right in my bedroom doorway. I stared as this happened and was wide awake. His face and head showed up last. He had clothes on I recognized….khaki pants and a red hooded sweatshirt that was one of his favorites. They say heaven or the afterlife is not up there, but intermingled with the physical world, and is a very real place, much like earth. They also have astral bodies that are much like their physical bodies. 8 think the veil has peeled back for me several times. Meditation helps immensely and asking for what you’d like. Took me 8 years to actually see him, but I have learned that they need to learn how to use their energy, and we have to be able to be wide open to it. I think he waited to make sure it didn’t scare me. I have also had a few good medium readings. Just a few of my experiences in case anyone is interested.
Natasha Mannella says
Natasha Mannella
Natasha Mannella says
The part that I grieve is not the loss of my daughter, rather the fact that the world has little concept of how great and spectacular heaven is…and how very real and the fact that life goes on after this physicality here. I am not the same person, I am truly alive now.
Brandy says
I lost my 22 year old son my protector may 24 2017 and I’m crying every day my heart is broken and half of my heart left with him! And now on December 18 2018 my 21 year old daughter passed away and now my other half of my heart left! I’m over and can’t handle this any more! I’m not a mommy any more ! Please help me PLEASE!!! Thanks brandy
Kim Colson says
This is April 17th, 2019. Our 24 year old son passed away two months ago today at 4:07 p.m..He was struck by a hit and run driver, who has not as yet been found. Even if they do find the person, it won’t bring our son back. He was handicapped from a previous accident 12 years prior. So this second accident was a shock…again or too….
I want you to know Brandy, that I KNOW that there is life after this earth life. Your son and daughter and my son are still living, just in a different space. They are happy….and want us to be also. I know how my heart aches for my son Matthew, and I try not to think too deeply about it anymore because it hurts too bad, so I can’t even imagine your pain…it is doubled from mine. I wish that I could make it go away and make it all better for you, but I don’t have that knowledge or power. What has helped me is my faith in the resurrection and that Heavenly Father and Christ are weeping with us. I know that we have an opportunity to live with them again. We just need to hang in there and try to live our lives so that they will be happy for us and proud of us also. I will pray for you my dear sweet sister and again, I am soooo sorry for your losses…you are loved….