Sometimes the idea
That my baby will still be here tomorrow
Every day that I wake up with small kicks inside of me is surreal.
I feel like nothing more
Than fractured pieces clinging desperately to one another
Trying to protect the magic life within my womb,
And it is a lonely, terrifying, beautiful experience.
One that I want to end.
I want to rush forward
To the moment where my baby is in my arms,
Healthy and alive.
Saying that breaks my heart,
Because I have longed to be pregnant for years,
But the utter happiness and bliss of this experience was taken from me.
This rainbow pregnancy is the most wonderful gift
I’ve ever received.