• How I Found My Village After The Deaths Of My Children

    June 30, 2017

    I never expected my life to take a dramatic turn. Bad things didn’t happen to me. I was happily married with a successful career…life was good. But, it only takes an instant for your life to turn upside down. That happened to me in 2013, when two of my triplets died within two months of…

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  • I Get To Use Your Name

    June 29, 2017

    Losses that paled in comparison to losing you, but losses nonetheless. I lost the opportunity to finish your bohemian baby room, with avocado green walls and fuchsia and teal accents. It would have been epic. So me, so you, so us. I lost getting to know my first daughter’s cry. I lost the opportunity to…

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  • I Couldn’t Find Solace in Faith

    June 28, 2017

    I couldn’t find solace in faith. I wanted to. Oh, how I wished I could have found comfort in God. I had never struggled with my beliefs before my loss. I had prayed and trusted in Him, never questioned His existence. Then, my world and all previous conviction changed. When my child died, I couldn’t…

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  • How One Midwife Transformed My Healing After My Miscarriage

    June 26, 2017

    My pregnancy started and 16 weeks later the words, “no heartbeat,” were spoken. I quickly fell through the trap door into a world of darkness, pain and suffering. Fortunately, I was working with an amazing home birth midwife who instantly wrapped me in her warm embrace. With her great wisdom, she worked tirelessly to ensure that…

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  • How Unfollowing My Friends on Social Media Saved My Sanity

    June 23, 2017

    After any type of loss, social media becomes a field of wildflowers sprinkled with land mines. It is a place that is both good and bad for grief. After losing my son, it has been difficult to see other’s lives so happy, while mine fell apart. However, it has also been a blessing when I…

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  • Enjoy the NOW

    June 21, 2017

    Momma, I see you, wishing away this season you’re in. Your belly round and tight, feet swollen and waddle walk. A red circle on the calendar counts down the weeks as you yearn for your little one here. But don’t wish this time away, this precious period that only you and baby share. This time,…

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  • The Death Certificate

    June 19, 2017

    I knew what it was before I opened the envelope. I just knew, like I knew that my son was dead before the policeman told me. Quietly, taking a deep breath, I sat down at the kitchen table, and placed the envelope before me. It was morning. It was daylight. I was alone. The snow…

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