What’s in a name? This month I wanted to ask you all, what’s in a name? How do you decide? What is important to you, when it comes to naming our children? When we first heard the words “It’s a boy!” with Aidan, I immediately saw what I wanted for his life; who I hoped he would grow to be like. We had been tossing around names for weeks, … [Read more...]
We are going to try changing up The Journey piece for a few months. We are going to try and focus on a topic and invite you to come and share your perspective with us all. I’m hoping that we can connect and reflect and hopefully even reach another parent who is walking this journey with us. There are so many things that you are just never prepared … [Read more...]
Quite frankly, this journey is wearing me out. The ups and downs, the twists and turns and then it all stops and sends us into reverse without warning. This portion of the journey seems to just be flailing out of control. I am grieving for Aidan. Everyone is having first birthdays that we sit on the outskirts of. I am trying so hard to stay in the … [Read more...]
We are 16 weeks into this pregnancy. We have had a successful cerclage placement. Bed rest has begun. Aidan is going to have a little brother. The excitement is growing. Hope is blooming. And yet, there are moments when it just feels a little hard to breathe. Moments that make the days feel heavier. I miss my first little boy. I miss the things I … [Read more...]
A picture worth a 1,000 words. Today, today I am 12 weeks pregnant with our rainbow baby. Aidan is a big brother. Those words bring me to my knees. So many emotions. More than I am able to express in any sort of sensical way. I am so excited. So happy. Brimming with hope. I am so scared. What if it happens again? What if something else goes … [Read more...]
A new part of this journey has begun. There are no more firsts. I know that everything changed, but I’m really experiencing it these days. My life is divided. Everything in the past year has been post Aidan. Every decision made is made with him in mind. My frame of mind is different. This weird phenomenon has started. People talk about what was … [Read more...]
Aidan, I am at a loss for words. How exactly am I supposed to put into words what these days have meant? They have been so full of memories. There have been tears. There has been laughter. There has been sheer determination. Most of all, there has been love. The kind of love that is known to inspire books and movies. A love that takes your … [Read more...]
I feel like this past year has been a marathon. I started out in a dead sprint; pure determination and survival mode. Bringing Aidan home, preparing the services, burying Aidan. The faster we got through it, the better we would fare. Then the immediacy wore off. We were left alone. I spent six weeks at home trying to figure out how to return to a … [Read more...]
Here lately heaven has felt really far away. Aidan has felt really far away. The hours we spent together as a family just weren’t enough. My heart seems to be in repeat mode. I keep reliving those days. The days before his birth were such blissful days. They were so easy and exciting. They were perfect. Literally the … [Read more...]
I miss him. I miss him so deeply it's almost as if I can't breathe at times. I am so proud of him. My cheeks hurt from smiling with pride. I love him. I love him so much my heart my burst. In all of the moments that are just too much to bear, I am able to look at his picture. His perfection reminds me of all the goodness. God's grace is … [Read more...]
When I was pregnant with Nora I was worried about how introducing a child into our lives would change the relationship between my husband and me. Nick and I have had a strong loving connection since our first date, after meeting through online dating. We are a perfect match in every way. His calm and [...]
Guest Post by Kristyn I found out I was pregnant 6 months after our wedding. As I watched that second little pink line on the pregnancy test get darker and darker, I instantly fell in love with the tiny being inside me. I remember my husband Mark just staring at me as I told him [...]
