In the last trimester of my first pregnancy, when I’d yet to taste the pain of losing a child, I spent hours preparing. I folded baby onesies into neat piles and arranged board books onto nursery shelves in order of descending height. I felt nervous about the uncertainties of childbirth and of caring for a…
-
When Hope is Distant: Searching For Rainbows
Continue...There’s a term in the baby loss community known as “rainbow babies,” a baby born after the loss of a child. I’m not here to debate whether or not we should refer to these children as rainbows. Some feel this term is offensive to the baby that was lost or don’t feel as if it…
-
- Child Loss
- Community
- Emotions/Feelings
- Life After Loss
- Pregnancy After Loss
- rainbow babies
- Rainbow Baby
- Stillbirth
- TTC
Struggling with Sunshine, Angels, and Rainbows
Continue...In the “baby loss community” there are terms and definitions for our children. Some of them I have heard before and some I never knew existed until I too became a member of this community. Terms such as Sunshine Children, Angel Baby, and Rainbow Baby. They are labels and terms that mothers use to show…
-
- Child Loss
- children
- Complicated Grief
- Dealing With Others in Grief
- Emotions
- Emotions/Feelings
- Gratitude
- Grief
- Healing
- Honoring Your Child
- Life After Loss
- Multiple Loss
- Neonatal Loss
- parenting after loss
- Pregnancy After Loss
- rainbow babies
- Rainbow Baby
- Supporting a Friend After Loss
- Supporting a Friend Through Loss
- Surviving Child From a Multiple Birth
- Twins / Twinless Twins
Little Lives Can’t Be Replaced
Continue...Recently I was beyond blessed to give birth to not just one, but two perfect little boys. It was an experience that I wasn’t sure I would ever have again and I will forever be grateful for. My kids are the absolute loves of my life, they’re amazing. All of them. While people may see…
-
- Child Loss
- Emotions
- Emotions/Feelings
- Grief
- Life After Loss
- parenting after loss
- rainbow babies
- Rainbow Baby
- Siblings Grief
- Stillbirth
A Little Sister’s Grief
Continue...Can a child grieve for the sister she never met? Can she feel the pain of her absence? Can she miss the one she didn’t have a chance to know? I have two little girls: a three-year-old ball of effervescent energy; and the one who came before her, the baby who arrived silently into this…
-
A Rainbow – Angel Connection
Continue...“I think she’s see’s him.” I’ve been trying to explain the recent conversation with our three-year old, rainbow to my husband. She’s been talking about “her brother” a lot lately. She’s even talked about a conversation she had with him. I know she has a good imagination, but the things she is saying… My husband…
-
- Angelversaries / Anniversaries / Special Dates
- Anger
- Child Loss
- Complicated Grief
- Emotions
- Emotions/Feelings
- Faith
- Feeling hopeless
- Finding Hope
- Grief
- Healing
- Life After Loss
- Memories
- Multiple Loss
- Neonatal Loss
- Pregnancy After Loss
- rainbow babies
- Rainbow Baby
- Time
- Trauma
When You Don’t Part the Waters
Continue...Four years ago today I sat next to my husband and daughter on a little couch in the PICU of Dallas Children’s Hospital and held my much wanted, much prayed over, rainbow baby boy as the clocked ticked past his 3 week birthday and Kaden took his last breath. We left that hospital hours later…
