Family Vacation. Not words I thought I'd want to utter after losing our precious first daughter and most certainly not something I thought I'd ever enjoy again. The last true 'vacation' we took was just after losing Bella. It didn't feel much like carefree getaway though. It was more like an escape, from a cruel reality we needed to run … [Read more...]
It is better to light a candle than curse the darkness. ~Eleanor Roosevelt One of the quickest, easiest, and fastest ways found to feel closer to my Bella Rose after her death was through lighting candles. I've often said Bella is my 'guiding light' through grief and life, so it's no surprise that lighting candles in honor of her is one way I'm … [Read more...]
If I could, I would go back in time. I would endure the sickness, the weakness and the worry. I would go through all the scans and invasive medical procedures. I would be given hope, then false hope, then no hope at all, all over again. I would struggle through the labor and the humiliation of my placenta not budging from my womb. I would … [Read more...]
I have a question for you today: What are you grateful for? Right here right now. What is bringing you joy? It's a simple question really, but when your heart has been torn apart by the loss of child or the emptiness of infertility the answer is probably not at the tip of your tongue. I am guessing you probably don't feel grateful for much … [Read more...]
I lost all faith in the universe the day we lost her. My happy little life shattered in an instant. Instead of the universe rewarding us with our first daughter and the start of a growing family, she left us with a vacant womb, empty arms, and a broken heart. I questioned everything I knew about the universe the day our Bella Rose was stillborn at 20 … [Read more...]
For years, woman have suffered in silence. It’s been too long. Things are changing, but change can’t come soon enough. I lost my baby when she was five days old, I am breaking the silence. I suffered two early miscarriages, I am breaking the silence. I am dealing with possible infertility, I am breaking the [...]
I must have been almost ten weeks along, and the only person that knew about this little life growing inside me was my husband. Our first child. Three years ago. We decided that Christmas Day would be the perfect time to announce to our families that we were going to be parents. We handpicked some [...]
