Strength and Weakness

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I have to admit that for a long time, a very, very, long time, I have been that woman. That woman who felt weak and disempowered by well, life. I allowed the waves to crash upon me with full force and I surrendered to the tide that would pull me so easily under. My spirit wasn’t cracked, it was broken, and every piece that lay scattered about reminded … [Read more...]

One Less Second Grader


Signs of back to school are everywhere. For some parents it might be a relief. Summer is over, and the school schedule is a welcome change. For bereaved parents, signs of torture are everywhere. Over-sized backpacks, school supplies, car drop off and pick up lines. It's a sucker punch to the gut. Everywhere you look there are painful reminders of … [Read more...]

This Too Is Birth, Not Death


Those were the words from the poem printed on the funeral stationary for our babies...both times. Focusing on the birth of a baby, the realization that all babies are born is one of the powerful and profound truths we learned while taking our birth and bereavement training through to serve as an SGM/SBD for Sufficient Grace … [Read more...]

Laugh If You Wanna Laugh…


I remember the night we learned that one of our twins, Daisy, had unexpectedly died and we knew we’d be saying goodbye to her sister, Sunshine, the next day. That night, and my husband and I sat on the couch. We’d talked and talked and talked and then decided to just shut up, eat dinner and watch TV. There was nothing left to say and I had no tears … [Read more...]

How Do You Define Yourself After Loss?

What do you choose?

(Note: The content of this article might be challenging if you're a recently bereaved parent. Having said this, it might support you in moving forward with grief.) I am a bereaved mother. I am a mother of a twinless twin. I am a semi-orphaned daughter. These are three labels or identities that I acquired in the space of 5 months a little … [Read more...]

Will She Be Forgotten?


I thought he had forgotten as I opened the Mother’s Day present this past May while at brunch.  There inside was a beautiful blue sapphire necklace. Running my fingertips over the slender smooth silver chain I said thank you and asked my husband, “Why a blue sapphire?” Proud of his purchase he replied, “It’s Zoe’s birthstone.” Turning to look at … [Read more...]

Atheism, Infertility and Grief

I've had a really tough time getting these words on the screen and even as I type now I'm not exactly sure how this may end. Still Standing as a whole has a pretty faith-based audience and the majority of writers have some sort of faith, in something.  I used to have faith; it was a pretty strong faith too.  I never identified with being Christian … [Read more...]

Finding Yourself After a Loss

Finding Yourself After a Loss, by Franchesca Cox

The other day someone mentioned a little girl we know is going to start Kindergarten in the fall. My first thought was, wow - time sure does fly - and then BAM, it hit me. Jenna would be too. Our eldest. I threw that into the conversation, awkwardly, I might add. "Jenna would be starting Kindergarten this year too." I don't really know what I expected … [Read more...]

Turning the Page…


They say life is written in Chapters. I can’t count the chapters of my life, but I know the chapter that most certainly changed the entire story. It begins with a birth and a death. All in the same day. In many ways, it became a new book, as I am no longer the person I was before Hannah and I know I can never be her again. I lost my innocence that … [Read more...]

I’m Sorry I Can’t Like Your Baby

Every day, I get online and brace myself for what I know will be an onslaught of happy families with healthy babies and glowing pregnancies. I shuffle my way through pictures, announcements, kids wearing 'Big Sister!' shirts, balloons being released from boxes, and grandparents posting ultrasounds. I sit and stare at each one briefly, part of me … [Read more...]