I sit in pain, my heart broken in a million razor sharp pieces. Shards rip though my insides, drawing fresh blood with every quickening of my breath. With every gasp for air between sobs. Eventually, the tears stop falling. There seem to be none left. For now. But the numbness, that is worse. The numbness leaves me fearful. Fearful I’ll … [Read more...]
Guest Post by Kelsey Vanderhorst of KVBIJOU Today marks a whole year that weʼve lived and breathed since watching our son slip from this world. A year of firsts. A year of unpredictable heartache. A year of tears and relearning how to live. A year of life without Zachary. Something I never imagined my heart would survive. Iʼm not sure it has, but … [Read more...]
I have spent all morning on Facebook. Usually when I do that these days, I get annoyed at myself, because that means I am procrastinating doing the things I should be doing. But not today. Today I was fulfilling a promise to my twin girls who died inside me when they were 23.5 weeks old. I promised to make their lives mean something. Somehow, someway. … [Read more...]
I opened the front door of our home and started walking. A new subdivision was under construction behind our home. Beyond the construction zone, it opened into a field marked with a tall wooden post that was spray painted with orange numbers. Honestly, it wasn’t the walk that I desired but rather some time alone. I needed to write. I needed … [Read more...]
In the South Pacific, I walked around the small island of Rarotonga curious about all the amazing flowers draped over the large cement boxes in the front yard of the homes. I was told that the Cook Island Maori bury their dead in their yard, performing a daily ritual and remembrance by covering the tomb of their ancestors in flowers. I've thought of … [Read more...]
Guest Post by Kara Image left: Illustrated Recipe of Grief, created for holiday creative prompt. First up: creative sparks Second: how-to do tape transfer First: Creative Prompts Anais Observed I am so glad this film finally came out on dvd. Since getting it over a year ago now, I've probably gone back to it 25 times. It is an amazing … [Read more...]
What you need: - Gesso - Gel Medium (glossy works best) - Small Hand Towel - Paper Maiche Box - Paintbrush - Iridescent Acylic Medium (optional) - White Tissue Paper Step 1 Begin by 'painting' gesso over the box, and add small strips of the tissue paper to create texture, as seen below. Paint with more gesso over the tissue paper strips to … [Read more...]
For years, woman have suffered in silence. It’s been too long. Things are changing, but change can’t come soon enough. I lost my baby when she was five days old, I am breaking the silence. I suffered two early miscarriages, I am breaking the silence. I am dealing with possible infertility, I am breaking the [...]
I must have been almost ten weeks along, and the only person that knew about this little life growing inside me was my husband. Our first child. Three years ago. We decided that Christmas Day would be the perfect time to announce to our families that we were going to be parents. We handpicked some [...]
