It's inside the spaces-- the pauses-- the infinite stillness-- that I most palpably feel the emptiness you've left behind. It's the silence of your missing voice that screams the loudest. It's every holiday that's impossible to truly celebrate. It's the painfully absent goodnight routine. It's the missing you in every picture of our … [Read more...]
Guest Post by Kristyn I found out I was pregnant 6 months after our wedding. As I watched that second little pink line on the pregnancy test get darker and darker, I instantly fell in love with the tiny being inside me. I remember my husband Mark just staring at me as I told him we were having a baby. I jumped up and down, and he sat quietly smiling. … [Read more...]
Guest Post by Sarah Rieke “Well at least you weren’t further along in your pregnancy.” “Thank goodness you didn’t have to spend weeks in the NICU.” “You should be so glad you got to have your baby for the time that you did.” To those who have never experienced infertility, pregnancy, or infant loss it seems there is a basic ranking … [Read more...]
One day shy of a year ago, I wrote my first self-care article. It was about journaling as self-care. And it was well received and I was happy to have written it. I've written just shy of a dozen more articles on self-care. Time for a dose of honesty. Even though I know the best things that bereaved parents can do for themselves, I don't always do … [Read more...]
Guest Post by Brooke Grunza After the death of my son I never expected to live again. I did not believe that the raw pain and emotion I felt learning my son would die would ever go away because a part of me died with him that day. But in time I did begin to live again. And that was so very hard. Each day that I cried less and smiled more was a … [Read more...]
When I was pregnant with Nora I was worried about how introducing a child into our lives would change the relationship between my husband and me. Nick and I have had a strong loving connection since our first date, after meeting through online dating. We are a perfect match in every way. His calm and cool character balances out my anxious and worried … [Read more...]
For years, woman have suffered in silence. It's been too long. Things are changing, but change can't come soon enough. I lost my baby when she was five days old, I am breaking the silence. I suffered two early miscarriages, I am breaking the silence. I am dealing with possible infertility, I am breaking the silence. I will no longer be … [Read more...]
My son should be turning seven. Seven. So far I've survived five of his birthdays without him. Five. He was killed when he was two. Two. It doesn't add up. It hasn't since the day he was violently robbed from me and it never will. Just thinking about another birthday without him makes me want to crawl into my bed and never come … [Read more...]
Guest Post by Lisa Sissons I’ve spent a lot of time recently thinking about the regret that I feel regarding all of the events leading up to Finley’s death and some of the decisions that were made afterwards. Several people that I’ve spoken to have told me that I shouldn’t feel guilt or regret about what happened because in the circumstances, … [Read more...]
Guest Post by Keira Sorrells It has been five years since my daughter Zoe died. She was one of my triplets born at 25 weeks, 5 days. She spent nine of her fourteen months in the NICU. In many ways I have struggled to find my proper place in the bereaved parent community. Unlike many babyloss moms, I had my daughter for over a year. I know what … [Read more...]
Guest Post by Melissa Neu I don’t know that I’ve ever been so exhausted. Sit and cry exhausted. Stomach hurting exhausted. “I’m tired, I’m worn, my heart is heavy. From the work it takes, to keep on breathing…” I’ve been seeing a counselor. I had put off making the appt I knew I needed because [...]
Guest Post by Emilee Frisbie If someone would have told me a year ago where I would be now, I never would believe them. I would tell them that stories that sad are made up, purely fiction. I would tell them, things like that don’t happen to me. They don’t happen to my family. I [...]
