• When grieving, it is still okay to laugh

    It’s Okay To Laugh

    May 11, 2018

    It is okay to laugh. No, it is. It was such a release once I allowed myself to do whatever felt natural, to not force myself to feel one way or another. There were so many times I felt like I had to be sad ALL THE TIME. I could not smile, I could not…

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  • Losing the magic of fountain wishes.

    Wishes That Can’t Come True

    April 15, 2018

    My husband and I knew from the beginning that if we had more kids, we would tell them about their older brother, the brother they never got to meet. The loss of our first born is complicated so we would discuss our loss on a level that they would understand and each and every year…

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  • Hard to Continue On

    March 9, 2018

    It is so hard to continue on, When you are gone. I never expected to feel this way, Because I was supposed to see you every day. You are my little baby boy, My pride and joy. I’m trying to be strong like you, But it is so very hard to do. Each morning I…

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    Grief Changes, Tears Still Flow

    February 9, 2018

    In the beginning, my emotions were so strong, so raw. I felt like I was in a dark, dank hole clawing with every bit of my soul to find a way out. My child was gone. My child had died. I had lost a part of me. In those first few minutes and hours, I…

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  • Dear Dragonfly…

    January 12, 2018

    To my dear Dragonfly Drake, It has been seven years since I had to do the unthinkable and let you go. To say goodbye when I was not ready, my heart was not ready and my soul was not ready. It did not matter that I knew with all my heart that saying goodbye was…

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  • Alone

    December 8, 2017

    The worst feeling – feeling alone. Even if you are surrounded by support you can feel alone. Even if you are surrounded by others who have gone through a loss you can feel alone. Alone because this is something new to you. There is no way to know how you are going to feel day-to-day…

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  • Am I Dead Inside?

    November 11, 2017

    Am I dead inside? Do I have any emotions left? Has the loss of my son made me emotionless? Recently (October 2017) my dear father-in-law passed away. We were lucky enough to go see him the weekend before he passed. I’ve known this man for 17 years. Upon our first meeting, there was no hand-shake…

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