• Will My Capacity Ever Return?

    April 8, 2018

    Last year I had a conversation with a friend who was grieving. She asked, “Will my capacity ever return?” I instantly said “No.” It had been almost 4 years at the time since I lost my firstborn daughter and 3 years since I lost my second daughter. But something didn’t sit well with me in…

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  • Will I Be This Sad Forever?

    March 11, 2018

    In the face of acute loss, the sadness can be overwhelming. It can cloud so much of life that not only can you not see any light, but you wonder if perhaps there is no light to be seen. You may also be faced with a conundrum. The idea of staying in such a state…

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  • When Grief Takes Work And Time

    February 11, 2018

    The old adage is that “Time heals wounds,” as if time itself holds some sort of healing powers. Any woman in grief would tell you it doesn’t. Time may cause the experience of grief to ebb and flow, but it does not in and of itself heal the wounds that have come out of the…

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  • What’s To Be Done About The Empty Stocking?

    December 10, 2017

    We hang our stockings over a fireplace, down our staircase, on a mantle, or in our case that first Christmas without our daughter, on a dresser. It’s a line of stockings for everyone who will be celebrating with you, but what about the ones who aren’t? What about the glaring hole you see where one…

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  • When Joy and Pain Exist Together

    August 11, 2017

    When my sister sat across from me on our couch and told me that she was pregnant with her third child, just a few months after I had lost my first daughter, tears ran down both of our cheeks. I felt both sadness and joy. I wanted to assure her that I was so happy…

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  • Learning to be a Gracious Griever

    July 17, 2017

    A month after my first daughter died, my husband and I walked into our church, and a young not even twenty something girl approached me. As she began to speak I knew the conversation would not go well. “Lindsey!” she said with excitement in her voice as if she had just discovered something profound she…

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  • The Night We Danced Again

    May 25, 2017

    When I dreamed of my wedding day, the first thing on my mind every time was the playlist. It had to be epic, there could be no sub par songs that held no worthy beat, and I would be on the dance floor the entire night. When our DJ decided to veer off the list…

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