• For Better, For Worse

    April 6, 2018

    In a few days, Joe and I will celebrate our 10th wedding anniversary.  Thinking back to that day, we never imagined the path our marriage would take.  With our friends and families looking on, barefoot on a beach and the gentle crash of the ocean waves in the background, we said our vows. “I, take…

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  • Bereaved Moms Book Club

    March 2, 2018

    The death of a child changes everything. You never know when you’re going to walk on a landmine, setting off grief and leaving you sobbing. Even books, television, and movies are forever changed. I’ve wondered if I should start the “Bereaved Moms Book Club” just so everyone knows what to avoid—or at least knows to…

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  • Searching for a rainbow after the loss of our daughter.

    When Hope is Distant: Searching For Rainbows

    February 2, 2018

    There’s a term in the baby loss community known as “rainbow babies,” a baby born after the loss of a child. I’m not here to debate whether or not we should refer to these children as rainbows. Some feel this term is offensive to the baby that was lost or don’t feel as if it…

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  • A new year still rings in without my daughter

    Another New Year Without My Daughter

    January 5, 2018

    Happy New Year The New Year—a time to toast the beginning of the new calendar, fresh starts and hope for a better year.  I struggle with sharing the sentiment, though.  A new year just takes me further from the last time I held my baby girl.  Three years later I still miss her.  I think…

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  • The Room that Was Hers

    Room

    December 21, 2017

    In a few weeks, we will invite a stranger into our home. She’ll interview us and examine our house to make sure we are suitable to be parents again. It’s part of the adoption home study process. I wonder what she’ll think as she walks through each room of our house, and sees reminders of…

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  • Body Betrayal

    November 8, 2017

    From the time girls are children, we are led to believe our destiny is motherhood.  Our bodies are built to carry and nourish children.  When we have babies, we’re told that our only job is to make sure they survive.  But where does that leave us when something goes wrong?  When we fail to fulfill…

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  • What You Think You Saw

    August 25, 2017

    I know you saw me at the craft store the other day.  You caught me wiping away a tear as I gently ran my finger over those artificial pink roses.   Maybe you thought I was looking at them for my mom’s grave. Or for a wreath to put on my door. You didn’t know that…

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