After losing my son Emmett nearly two years ago, I couldn’t comprehend the idea of “joy.” How could I possibly ever find delight or pleasure in the same activities and thoughts that I once found so enjoyable? I felt such overwhelming guilt. Survivor’s guilt. Why couldn’t it have been me instead of my son? I…
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When There’s Uncertainty That a Rainbow Will Ever Come
Continue...I never heard the term rainbow baby until suddenly being plummeted into the pregnancy loss world nearly two years ago. Today, I’m uncertain that my husband and I ever will be able to experience the beauty and joy of a rainbow after the savage storm. Last summer, I found out that nine friends all were…
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Lessons I Learned About Grief and Loss from Doctor Who
Continue...First thing you need to know about me: I’m a nerd and I love BBC’s “Doctor Who.” If you don’t know what “Doctor Who” is, I’ll get to that in a moment. Second thing you need to know about me: I lost my son Emmett. It’s been a difficult 18 months trying to navigate this…
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10 Bible Quotes to Provide Hope and Strength After Loss
Continue...I can’t say I’ve regularly read the Bible before or that I’m an overly religious person. You could call me a “recovering Catholic” as I grew up with a strict Filipino father where we went to weekly mass and prayed the rosary; I was an altar server and went to CCD classes at our church.…
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How A Memorial Tattoo Helped Me Mourn My Son
Continue...Shortly after coming home from the hospital, I had decided that I wanted a memorial tattoo in honor of Emmett. The new ink would be a constant reminder of the love I carry for him. So, I needed to find something that was symbolic of him and this journey. My husband’s family bought a hydrangea…