• Even 29 Years Later

    September 21, 2016

    Many times I hear parents that have lost a child struggle to answer a simple question, “How many children do you have?” They struggle with whether to answer the question truthfully or save the innocent curious stranger an awkward sad moment. Although I’ve never lost a child, I’ve had similar moments as a sibling of…

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  • Dealing With Ignorance After Pregnancy Loss

    September 7, 2016

    “Don’t stress and it will happen.” “You’ve gotten pregnant once so you’ll get pregnant again.” “Everything will happen when the time is right.” I heard this several times when trying to get pregnant. I never understood how that was supposed to help. It’s like telling an angry woman to calm down. Watch out, especially if…

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  • What Infertility During Pregnancy Means to Me.

    August 31, 2016

    Infertility is literally a battle. It feels like you’re fighting a wall of barriers. Then the minute you get past that you find another barrier. Then another. Then another. It’s exhausting. Mentally, spiritually, physically. When you see another woman plow through her barrier and win the battle (although the war is not won until you…

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  • Pillars of Strength from the Past

    September 24, 2013

    A couple of years ago my parents gave me an invaluable gift for Christmas. It was a four inch thick binder of the history of my ancestors. A few weeks ago I decided to delve into the histories. I was caught off guard at the circumstances my ancestors went through. The stories I read were…

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  • Dealing with Infertility without God

    August 27, 2013

    I’ve pondered how to write about this very sensitive subject without ruffling any feathers but still being true to myself. I apologize in advance if it makes anyone uncomfortable but I feel like it’s a topic that often goes untouched. So here’s my attempt at pulling this bulky book off the shelf, dusting it off…

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  • The Cycle of Grief

    July 19, 2013

    During my schooling I had a fascination with grief, with it forms and cycles. Many people think grief is so simple. That it’s so easily grazed over or fixed. In reality, grief is so complex. It’s anger. It’s sadness. It’s denial. It’s lonely. Sometimes with infertility grief isn’t even acceptable, it’s dramatic, because in people’s…

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  • Storms of Infertility

    May 28, 2013

    First, I want to extend my thoughts and prayers out to the victims of the EF5 tornado in Moore, Oklahoma. If anyone is like me I spent the whole week after the devastation glued to the news. I listened to countless inspirational stories of survival. I also listened to several heartbreaking stories of loss and…

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