The Mother Heart, it’s real
Apparently having a “Mother Heart” is real.
Not because I’m a loss mom but because some one pure of heart and mind said so.
A child. A child very dear to my heart told me matter of fact that I’m a Mom.
Since I was young I’ve always had children in my life, started when I was 10 with my first niece and has continued. I have 2 special little girls who have been in my life for almost 4 years now. I call them my “Monday Children”. For about 3 years I watched them almost every single Monday, the youngest is almost 4 and is my God-Daughter and the older is almost 6. I moved half a state away early this fall and just saw them a couple weeks ago after being away for 4 months.
During my visit they of course had to show me multiple pictures they drew, their Christmas presents, I read them a book, and listened to all their jabber. In the midst of everything Oldest Monday Girl just up and says:
“Mandy, you’re a mommy.” To which I replied, “No honey I’m not, I don’t have any babies at home, remember?”
She looked at me like I was a total idiot as if to say, “Um, hey dummy, yeah, you are a mommy, how can you say you are not?!” It would have been hilarious if I didn’t realize she was serious and to her I am a mommy. Not her mommy, but A mommy. After she got over her irritation with me for saying I’m not a mom she then tells me, “Well then I have TWO aunts, Auntie J and Auntie Mandy!” But I still got this side eye look, from a FIVE YEAR OLD. Made me feel totally silly for disagreeing, let me tell you.
The fact that a child recognizes that being a Mommy is more than just birthing a child is amazing to me especially since so many grown ups don’t make this realization. A child could look at me and see my “Mother Heart” solidifies the feeling that so many women who are infertile feel. In our hearts we are already mothers we just don’t have our babies in our arms yet and that’s not our fault. Some of us may never have children but our hearts will always seek out a way to be a mommy.
Never doubt your hearts.