The day after we lost Joshua my mom gave me a ring to wear with his birthstone. I wore it every day for four and half years. Last month I noticed that one of the amethyst stones was missing. A prong had got bent and broke allowing the pale purple stone to fall out. I…
You are my first thought upon waking in the morning.
You walk with me in every step of my day.
No one can see you there, but you are next to me. Unseen, unheard, but never far from my awareness.
All that I do is because of you.
Every laugh, every tear, every connection, every action. It’s all because of and for you.
You walk with me, my unseen precious child. I walk for you.
I am more because of you. I live more fully, more alive, and more richly because you lived. I live your legacy.
I feel, I grieve, I love more deeply because you lived and died.
I walk with you every day, your phantom hand in mine, because you cannot walk on earth with me.
You are mine and I am yours, every step and every moment of every day.
You are my last thought before I sleep at night.
You are my first and last. My always.
I am so grateful that you lived.
You will live forever through me.
From your first to my last. Always.